No-one knows how to beat you up like yourself.I'm having a rough one today, had some news about one of my kids yesterday (nothing too serious and nothing i wasn't expecting) but it's hit me like a truck. My head is just spinning with thought of guilt and blaming myself and all kinds of just mentally beating myself up. I've been in tears a few times and I know i need to do something, get out of the house or write in my blog or just do anything productive but it's just so hard to pull out the motivation to do it.
I went into work today, dreaded it, felt sick - got there and nothing happened. Some people said hello, bit of chat, that was it.
One of my colleagues left, final day, some drinks after work - again the feeling that it was all going to go wrong somehow - explained to him beforehand, I'll be on cola and will leave when it gets a bit much - he was fine. felt like a weight off my shoulders.
Gonna try and eat something now as i realised the reason my stomachs churning is cos i barely ate today