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Roker SOL said:
A possible reason for one or two disbelieving me goes back two years.

For a few months, I had an interesting micro-manager who refused to believe I had what I then thought was AD-HD. I described symptoms I know know to be Autistic. It led to union involvement and eventually time on sick. Micro-managing someone with autism is a no no and led to my work at times being majorly affected. I was also queried about things I never did.

That manager was on point of being moved on but left themselves before they could be. That manager also ended up in a battle with at least one other person and wasn't the most popular.

The problem is things that manager placed on my record and can't see are still being taken ad verbatim. A recent example is I spotted a problem with a procedure and it took ages to be taken seriously and only when two others on a call backed me up. I also know some notes about me are incorrect. This is why I now make sure things I say are backed up with physical proof.

As said, I've worked bloody hard to put things right. That includes 20 counselling sessions with NHS Talking Therapies, 14 of those face-to-face.

Writing this, perhaps a fresh start with the new team is the right thing after all. A senior manager involved at the time is still there.

But the friends I mentioned are effectively part of my support network.
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Credit to you for dealing with it, but it does seem like a lot of people that claim autism are creating a disbelief issue for the actual sufferers. That stigma has worked it's way upwards and you seem to be feeling the negative effects. Basically, it's ignorance of a proven medical issue. Try to remain calm when you're putting your side across in meetings as hard as that may be, don't give anyone cause to discipline you so they end up with some other reason to dismiss you
 

70s traveller said:
Credit to you for dealing with it, but it does seem like a lot of people that claim autism are creating a disbelief issue for the actual sufferers. That stigma has worked it's way upwards and you seem to be feeling the negative effects. Basically, it's ignorance of a proven medical issue. Try to remain calm when you're putting your side across in meetings as hard as that may be, don't give anyone cause to discipline you so they end up with some other reason to dismiss you
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That's why I now provide documentary evidence of everything. I'm off to my GP this afternoon to ensure I've a letter to cover my dyspraxia.

If you believe you have a condition or are told you have one, go get it assessed.

I was told way back in 2006 by a retired mental health nurse to see someone but ignored it until the shit hit the fan. Given my 1978 assessment that my mum made disappear (working in right place to make this happen - discussed previously), I should have known better.
EDIT: I'm having a day off work, using up flexi before I change teams.

There was a brief article on "This Morning" about an increase in people believing they have the condition. Perhaps awareness raised by Chris Packham and Christina Middleton has led to this.

This is why it's more important to have such things properly diagnosed, simply so that your are believed. I remember being explicitly told that people believe, for example, that an increase in cases of AD-HD were an effort by some to claim extra benefits. I was told my diagnosis was okay because I was working.
 
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Roker SOL said:
That's why I now provide documentary evidence of everything. I'm off to my GP this afternoon to ensure I've a letter to cover my dyspraxia.

If you believe you have a condition or are told you have one, go get it assessed.

I was told way back in 2006 by a retired mental health nurse to see someone but ignored it until the shit hit the fan. Given my 1978 assessment that my mum made disappear (working in right place to make this happen - discussed previously), I should have known better.
EDIT: I'm having a day off work, using up flexi before I change teams.

There was a brief article on "This Morning" about an increase in people believing they have the condition. Perhaps awareness raised by Chris Packham and Christina Middleton has led to this.

This is why it's more important to have such things properly diagnosed, simply so that your are believed. I remember being explicitly told that people believe, for example, that an increase in cases of AD-HD were an effort by some to claim extra benefits. I was told my diagnosis was okay because I was working.
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Your final para above nails the situation. if there are doubts anywhere show the documented evidence - then anyone can dispute it with the named diagnosing medical professional. Always play everything by the book with dated evidence
 
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Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
 
mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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If you're actually thinking of something drastic, Samaritans. 116 123. Now.

Get amongst family as soon as. Don't be alone. Then go to your GP as a matter of urgency.

If it's work, get your GP to give you a fit not to at least give you some space.

Long term, NHS Talking Therapies.
 
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mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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As Roker SOL posted above; GET HELP NOW Call one of those numbers, and try not to be alone you need to be with & speak to someone.
 
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mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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Dont be sorry to post,mate,some good people and good advice on here..everyone here to help each other...
 
mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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Do you want a chat? I've got no experience but sounds like you could do with a friend
 
mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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No need for apologies. I think the vast majority in here have been to dark places (to different extents) and the point of the thread is to help each other.

Much better you've posted than just let it sit in your head. Loads of great advice above and best thing you can do is talk, get to a place you feel safe, around people who care.

Try not to dwell on things so much, try and focus on the future, things you can do to help improve your life, get better. Sometimes things feel like they can never improve but loads of people been to dark places and came out tops and you can as well.
 
Chatty83 said:
No need for apologies. I think the vast majority in here have been to dark places (to different extents) and the point of the thread is to help each other.

Much better you've posted than just let it sit in your head. Loads of great advice above and best thing you can do is talk, get to a place you feel safe, around people who care.

Try not to dwell on things so much, try and focus on the future, things you can do to help improve your life, get better. Sometimes things feel like they can never improve but loads of people been to dark places and came out tops and you can as well.
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Second line above says it all and the last para is the way to go, focus ahead don't think about brought you to here 1989. I can pretty much guarantee you aren't alone with your thoughts. Better times ARE ahead, never forget that.
 
mackem1989 said:
Post warning!



Been off here a while this thread that is.


I suffer from extreme emotions and recently I have felt like ending it all I’ve had numerous attempts which have failed and I’m at breaking point

I’ve spoken to doctors and my family are aware it’s that bad when I leave the hous they are constantly on me.

I cannot control it at the moment and I’m afraid of me I would never harm anyone other then myself but I’m truely afraid if today is my last day it’s been on for weeks and my mind is all over the place.

Sorry to post this !
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How are you feeling this morning?

Another one here who cares about you and would be happy to chat xx
 
Gaz4 said:
How you're feeling @mackem1989 won't go on forever. Keep going... day by day, get help, stay off the drink, keep talking, keep posting and you WILL get through it.
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Spot on
Roker SOL said:
A possible reason for one or two disbelieving me goes back two years.

For a few months, I had an interesting micro-manager who refused to believe I had what I then thought was AD-HD. I described symptoms I know know to be Autistic. It led to union involvement and eventually time on sick. Micro-managing someone with autism is a no no and led to my work at times being majorly affected. I was also queried about things I never did.

That manager was on point of being moved on but left themselves before they could be. That manager also ended up in a battle with at least one other person and wasn't the most popular.

The problem is things that manager placed on my record and can't see are still being taken ad verbatim. A recent example is I spotted a problem with a procedure and it took ages to be taken seriously and only when two others on a call backed me up. I also know some notes about me are incorrect. This is why I now make sure things I say are backed up with physical proof.

As said, I've worked bloody hard to put things right. That includes 20 counselling sessions with NHS Talking Therapies, 14 of those face-to-face.

Writing this, perhaps a fresh start with the new team is the right thing after all. A senior manager involved at the time is still there.

But the friends I mentioned are effectively part of my support network.
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It seems like you've been caught in the stigma created by a previous situation, but you've done the right thing in working your way through it. You can stand up strong when you have evidence, well done to yourself & support!
 
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