Have the day off on Friday. Was supposed to be going for breakfast or lunch with our lass but that won't be happening so I might just cancel the day off. Supposed to be going to Durham for drinks with my mate on Saturday but not sure I'll do that either because drinking seems a really bad idea at the minute.
I've had enough of talking about it. I need some escapism. If I had some spare cash I'd be looking at the cheapest flights I could find and disappearing for a few days but I don't have the money and I don't want to upset the kids. I hate birthdays. Can't remember the last one I enjoyed.
I'm going to put a brave face on and take the kids to school then I'm just going to walk until it's time to pick them up again. It's exhausting pretending to be ok though when my world is falling apart. Hoping to keep up the act until my daughter has got her sats out of the way.
She will do really well aslong as we can keep a lid on stuff for the next few weeks. Fingers crossed.
Can you not ask for something else to try or do you not want to? I don’t blame you for stopping
I have panic attacks, I can honestly say they were ruining my life at one point, I even had a massive one in the middle of a skinny pigs session which was mortifying. I couldn’t go back because in my head i thought it was going to happen again if I did and my anxiety was through the roof. I was so angry at myself because I couldn’t control it, a grown woman. I had to ring my mam so she could calm me down. I take propranolol now if I feel one starting and it’s been a godsend and weirdly I’ve gone from having one every day to maybe one every 2 weeks if not less and I think that’s because I know I can take something to nip it in the bud. I’ve tried all the mind and breathing techniques and they didn’t really help. I just wish I’d been offered that medication sooner because my life was miserable with it at times.
Lord, I’m sorry for the me me me!!
It gave me headaches too but nothing that severe, that’s scary Becs. Have you not thought of taking something else or do you not want to?
Have you ever done camping in your car? If it's your sort of thing it could be a good distraction for you and cheap. There's a canny group on Facebook (I know) that's all about people's experiences.
Can you not ask for something else to try or do you not want to? I don’t blame you for stopping
I have panic attacks, I can honestly say they were ruining my life at one point, I even had a massive one in the middle of a skinny pigs session which was mortifying. I couldn’t go back because in my head i thought it was going to happen again if I did and my anxiety was through the roof. I was so angry at myself because I couldn’t control it, a grown woman. I had to ring my mam so she could calm me down. I take propranolol now if I feel one starting and it’s been a godsend and weirdly I’ve gone from having one every day to maybe one every 2 weeks if not less and I think that’s because I know I can take something to nip it in the bud. I’ve tried all the mind and breathing techniques and they didn’t really help. I just wish I’d been offered that medication sooner because my life was miserable with it at times.
Lord, I’m sorry for the me me me!!
It gave me headaches too but nothing that severe, that’s scary Becs. Have you not thought of taking something else or do you not want to?
I don't drive mate. Would have been extremely useful at the minute typically.
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This.
I call it putting my face on. You are right bloody exhausting, but necessary sometimes.
Yeah yesterday was awful. Trying not to ruin the kids excitement. I ended up taking them to school then going back to bed until it was time to pick them up. I've had some crap birthdays in my time but that was definitely in my top 2.
