El Gen
Striker
one thing i would say is that you clearly understand the mistakes you made, and you've clearly tried to make amends.
No matter what happened I can't justify my/our actions.
Started listening to the wrong people and the voices in my head telling me they didn't love me anymore and were taking the piss.
It sounds even more ridiculous and stupid all these years later.
You've had enough gone on in your life that could have easily defined who you are - but you've not allowed that.
Maybe time to let this go so it doesn't define who you are later in life.
I don't think anyone on here would disagree with that or wish you nothing but the best moving forward.