I watched us fall apart under Mackemenemy. I stood in disbelief and almost in tears in an almost emptied ground after the relegation playoff v Gillingham. I went to all the home games in the old third division. The relegation was awful, but I thoroughly enjoyed the third division.
I've never felt so disconnected from SAFC. I cared back then, and no matter how crap we were, I cheered the lads on. You can explain it, but people don't get it- this is the lowest I've ever felt about the club. It has never been worse in my lifetime, and that's 51 years. It's not the club I fell in love with.
Why is that? Maybe because expectations are so much higher now. Maybe because we were on the cusp of being a good PL side for the first time since Reid. Maybe because of the shocking attitude of some of our players. Maybe because of the club's awful mismanagement. Maybe because the future looks dreadful, financially and football wise.
It's probably all of the above, I can't put my finger on exactly why, but this hurts more than the Mackemenemy era for me. A lot more.