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Depression thread continued...


Hendon Mad Frog said:
Bit late to the party on this but we have been through the wringer on this as well coming up 2 year now and we only have 1, couldn't imagine having to do it with 2 and travelling for work. My wife also has a career.

People around us just don't "get it", but they're either childless, have parents who are pretty much childminders or their bairns slept right through from an early age.

There's a reason sleep deprevation is used in interrogation/torture... only thing that keeps me sane is humour and those little moments with him where he lights up our day.
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Totally get it. Any sort of physical fatigue will do a number on your mental health over a long enough period of time. Even if life is going swimmingly, burn the candle at both ends and you'll unravel.

Feeling generally lousy at the moment. Usual winter/Xmas blues and just feeling like the best I get from people is 'tolerated'. It's not a rewarding or fulfilling life at the moment. I'm keeping my head well above water - through my own hard work - but the parts of life where other people have to at least meet me half way are severely lacking.

I feel generally less-accepted by other people purely for being different and being a decent, honest person doesn't matter a jot. Life just seems like an endless toil until the care home. Feel like doing a Keith Flint at some point.
 
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S.S.R.. said:
Totally get it. Any sort of physical fatigue will do a number on your mental health over a long enough period of time. Even if life is going swimmingly, burn the candle at both ends and you'll unravel.

Feeling generally lousy at the moment. Usual winter/Xmas blues and just feeling like the best I get from people is 'tolerated'. It's not a rewarding or fulfilling life at the moment. I'm keeping my head well above water - through my own hard work - but the parts of life where other people have to at least meet me half way are severely lacking.

I feel generally less-accepted by other people purely for being different and being a decent, honest person doesn't matter a jot. Life just seems like an endless toil until the care home. Feel like doing a Keith Flint at some point.
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Hope your ok marra.
 
Counting down the days to my final working day this month. Work is absolutely mental right now and I'm feeling damn close to burnout. Every project I'm on has gone tits up and I'm basically spending all day, every day, being absolutely reamed out for things that weren't my fault.

Thank fuck I've got a bit of time off coming up, from the 19th to Jan 5th. Too many more days of this and I'll end up saying something I regret.
 
mackinbristol said:
Counting down the days to my final working day this month. Work is absolutely mental right now and I'm feeling damn close to burnout. Every project I'm on has gone tits up and I'm basically spending all day, every day, being absolutely reamed out for things that weren't my fault.

Thank fuck I've got a bit of time off coming up, from the 19th to Jan 5th. Too many more days of this and I'll end up saying something I regret.
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Similar here actually, I put a meeting into discuss the issues and give the higher ups some proper perspective, it has helped.

I also have the same time off, need to box off an exam this week then its feet up watching the darts till Friday.
 
S.S.R.. said:
Totally get it. Any sort of physical fatigue will do a number on your mental health over a long enough period of time. Even if life is going swimmingly, burn the candle at both ends and you'll unravel.

Feeling generally lousy at the moment. Usual winter/Xmas blues and just feeling like the best I get from people is 'tolerated'. It's not a rewarding or fulfilling life at the moment. I'm keeping my head well above water - through my own hard work - but the parts of life where other people have to at least meet me half way are severely lacking.

I feel generally less-accepted by other people purely for being different and being a decent, honest person doesn't matter a jot. Life just seems like an endless toil until the care home. Feel like doing a Keith Flint at some point.
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See i'm right there with you. I feel as though I am always trying my best, being nice, kind, funny, really putting myself out there and my efforts are for nothing. And then boy does that drag you down to a pit of despair and self loathing. Too much? Well that's how I feel.

I have and will always believe that being different is a good thing. Sometimes it's the thing that makes us strong. Sometimes it's the thing that brings us down, but it's what we are....try not to despair over it and embrace it.

Good luck. Thinking of you.
mackinbristol said:
Counting down the days to my final working day this month. Work is absolutely mental right now and I'm feeling damn close to burnout. Every project I'm on has gone tits up and I'm basically spending all day, every day, being absolutely reamed out for things that weren't my fault.

Thank fuck I've got a bit of time off coming up, from the 19th to Jan 5th. Too many more days of this and I'll end up saying something I regret.
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Eyes on the prize. The 19th December is your goal. Nothing else matters.
 
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mackinbristol said:
And then I can call my boss a ****?
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Aye of course you can hahaha. Na don’t do it. I lost my job of ten year for doing that. Still hate the little prick. X
How are we all doing this fabulous Sunday evening.

Super Sunderland has cheered this fat lad up. I’ve been up the shop twice in my Sunderland top today in the darkest newbiggin hall.
Hope we are all ok. Love Rhubarb. Xx
 
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Rhubarb said:
Aye of course you can hahaha. Na don’t do it. I lost my job of ten year for doing that. Still hate the little prick. X
How are we all doing this fabulous Sunday evening.

Super Sunderland has cheered this fat lad up. I’ve been up the shop twice in my Sunderland top today in the darkest newbiggin hall.
Hope we are all ok. Love Rhubarb. Xx
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Ok. I'm hanging on by a thread and drinking too much....to drown my depression and anxiety. Feeling a bit shit I suppose, but hey tomorrow's another day.

Sorry to be such a moan on such a glorious day but sometimes the good days shine a light on how shite you are feeling.

Off to take some medication.
 
CPLforever said:
Ok. I'm hanging on by a thread and drinking too much....to drown my depression and anxiety. Feeling a bit shit I suppose, but hey tomorrow's another day.

Sorry to be such a moan on such a glorious day but sometimes the good days shine a light on how shite you are feeling.

Off to take some medication.
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Don’t be too hard on yourself!! You’re not a moan to anyone. And yes indeed tomorrow is another day. Sending love. Xx
 
CPLforever said:
Hello still trying to cope with some maladaptive coping methods but facing it head on and wishing i didn't have to come on here to vent. Wish I could vent in real life. Maybe time for self referral to crisis team.
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You do whatever is best for you mate and vent whenever you feel like ❤️
 
CPLforever said:
Hello still trying to cope with some maladaptive coping methods but facing it head on and wishing i didn't have to come on here to vent. Wish I could vent in real life. Maybe time for self referral to crisis team.
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We have loads of wonderful people on here, reach out if you need to, never suffer in silence. Venting on here is a good thing, means your not alone with the dark thoughts.

This time of year is terrible, everyone seems so happy, your expected to be happy, its so tiring trying to keep an act up for others, easier to find ways to cope, which always tends to be drink or comfort eating.

Reach out, get the support you need and never be sorry for coming on here.

Let us know how your getting on when you feel up to it.
 
Hey everone.i am sorry. Please don't worry about me. I am not great. Without going into too much detail have not been looking after myself like I should, leading to a bit of a dip. That tends, with me anyway to lead to a bit of non engagement because one symptom of this is over sensitivity and withdrawl is how I handle it. Not just meaning on here. Finding it difficult to leave the house but, without prompting, that is quite normal for me.

Another increase in medication. Which although maintains a baseline also tends to push me down a bit cos it means i'm slipping. Anyway thanks for reaching out.
 
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CPLforever said:
Hey everone.i am sorry. Please don't worry about me. I am not great. Without going into too much detail have not been looking after myself like I should, leading to a bit of a dip. That tends, with me anyway to lead to a bit of non engagement because one symptom of this is over sensitivity and withdrawl is how I handle it. Not just meaning on here. Finding it difficult to leave the house but, without prompting, that is quite normal for me.

Another increase in medication. Which although maintains a baseline also tends to push me down a bit cos it means i'm slipping. Anyway thanks for reaching out.
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You just do what you have to do to get yourself sorted ❤️
 
CPLforever said:
Hey everone.i am sorry. Please don't worry about me. I am not great. Without going into too much detail have not been looking after myself like I should, leading to a bit of a dip. That tends, with me anyway to lead to a bit of non engagement because one symptom of this is over sensitivity and withdrawl is how I handle it. Not just meaning on here. Finding it difficult to leave the house but, without prompting, that is quite normal for me.

Another increase in medication. Which although maintains a baseline also tends to push me down a bit cos it means i'm slipping. Anyway thanks for reaching out.
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If you do need to talk then get in touch with any of us on here.
 
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