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Gennaro Savastano said:
I'm not even sure it is the tablets but I am having very vivid nightmares pretty much every night. When I wake up it often takes a good while to realise it isn't real.
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Certain medications can do that....but so can an overactive, overthinking, stressed out brain.

Drives you batty and can set you up for the whole day. (For better or worse).

Good luck.
 

Mr Redknapp said:
I'm no wise man but what I can say is that you are all not alone. My dad went into hospital last week and had an op a week today. he had a bad couple of episodes ( probably his meds as he's not an aggressive type these days). He's got his faults and wasn't the greatest dad growing up but when I saw him in the ward I felt, crikey he's a frail old man these days (only 63 but he has had health issues all his life). He's not a monster and made Christmases great.

I'm so fortunate to work so many great people and they helped me get through a rubbish week.
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lost him this morning :(
 
63 doesn't even seem that old these days.
... apologies if it's not particularly tactful at the moment, but genuinely thinking about when my current mortgage deal expires, doing up place and getting as much as I can, selling up. Then jack in my job and just live as long as the equity in my house lasts.

Honestly trying the best I can to build some sort of a life for myself so I think differently when that happens. At the minute I can't be bothered with grafting in my 50s for how I feel currently.
My Dad - who I reckon is massively on the spectrum. Poor sod has a heed full of toffee wrappers - is approaching his 80s, because God has a twisted sense of humour and lets lost souls drag on for f***ing ever. Can see my later life closely resembling his existence and seriously fuck that into a bin.
If either treated with complete indifference or folk make snide comments to me. Can't be arsed with people. Not worth working 40hrs a week for this shite.
 
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S.S.R.. said:
63 doesn't even seem that old these days.
... apologies if it's not particularly tactful at the moment, but genuinely thinking about when my current mortgage deal expires, doing up place and getting as much as I can, selling up. Then jack in my job and just live as long as the equity in my house lasts.

Honestly trying the best I can to build some sort of a life for myself so I think differently when that happens. At the minute I can't be bothered with grafting in my 50s for how I feel currently.
My Dad - who I reckon is massively on the spectrum. Poor sod has a heed full of toffee wrappers - is approaching his 80s, because God has a twisted sense of humour and lets lost souls drag on for f***ing ever. Can see my later life closely resembling his existence and seriously fuck that into a bin.
If either treated with complete indifference or folk make snide comments to me. Can't be arsed with people. Not worth working 40hrs a week for this shite.
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Live life on your own terms whilst considering the feelings of those around you, even if they don't consider yours. Remember you are better than them.

Whatever you decide hope it brings you peace and satisfaction. Meanwhile keep posting, chatting, interacting and working towards your goals. Work to live, not live to work is always my motto.
 
S.S.R.. said:
Thanks. Just venting..don't want to pull anyone else down. Just feel a bit despondent for the future.
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As far as your old man goes, my dad has been unwell for the last ten years or so, is now 72 so still not ancient but getting on. The last 2 years he hasn’t left his bed, eats, sleeps, smokes 20 tabs a day and does everything else from his bed. I do all his running around for him and his carers look after him on a daily basis.

He doesn’t want to be here but keeps going. It’s almost a miracle.

Live your life while you can.
 
I put it on FB about an hour after to tell my extended friends and family know and my cousin decided to have a pop at my as it was how she found it out. I apologized like but she wasn't having any of it (she didn't even ask how anyone was especially my mother) I remained sympathetic and until my aunty said she was going around my cousins kicking off about it, I mean it know it's her uncle but she didn't have to phone my sister in Holland while she was alone in a room in holland and hearing her break down and feeling helpless about not being there. she's in Blackpool having a holiday and did phone him once over the past week but that's the first time in about 8 years they've spoke and hasn't been in touch since. I know she lost her mother as a child and has major health issues but surely it's a pretty horrible thing to behave to some who watched his father take his last breaths about 1 hour earlier.

Whatever sympathy I had has fucked right off and hope to never see her again (can't stop her from going to the funeral but after that she can do one).

I'm sorry for ranting here you are all going through your own trials and tribulations.
 
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Mr Redknapp said:
I put it on FB about an hour after to tell my extended friends and family know and my cousin decided to have a pop at my as it was how she found it out. I apologized like but she wasn't having any of it (she didn't even ask how anyone was especially my mother) I remained sympathetic and until my aunty said she was going around my cousins kicking off about it, I mean it know it's her uncle but she didn't have to phone my sister in Holland while she was alone in a room in holland and hearing her break down and feeling helpless about not being there. she's in Blackpool having a holiday and did phone him once over the past week but that's the first time in about 8 years they've spoke and hasn't been in touch since. I know she lost her mother as a child and has major health issues but surely it's a pretty horrible thing to behave to some who watched his father take his last breaths about 1 hour earlier.

Whatever sympathy I had has fucked right off and hope to never see her again (can't stop her from going to the funeral but after that she can do one).

I'm sorry for ranting here you are all going through your own trials and tribulations.
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Your cousin is being a dick mate.
 
Mr Redknapp said:
I put it on FB about an hour after to tell my extended friends and family know and my cousin decided to have a pop at my as it was how she found it out. I apologized like but she wasn't having any of it (she didn't even ask how anyone was especially my mother) I remained sympathetic and until my aunty said she was going around my cousins kicking off about it, I mean it know it's her uncle but she didn't have to phone my sister in Holland while she was alone in a room in holland and hearing her break down and feeling helpless about not being there. she's in Blackpool having a holiday and did phone him once over the past week but that's the first time in about 8 years they've spoke and hasn't been in touch since. I know she lost her mother as a child and has major health issues but surely it's a pretty horrible thing to behave to some who watched his father take his last breaths about 1 hour earlier.

Whatever sympathy I had has fucked right off and hope to never see her again (can't stop her from going to the funeral but after that she can do one).

I'm sorry for ranting here you are all going through your own trials and tribulations.
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Let the dust settle first. It might be a reaction that she regrets.
 
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