Still will hit you as well mate and so sorry suicide is awful
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mackem1989
Striker
today I feel as I don’t want to be here anymore I don’t want to die but my thoughts are creeping in had a bit of a breakdown this morning where I sat with a belt in my hand thinking what if funny thing is I don’t feel depressed one bit as I am not down or upset I’m just here
You really need to speak to someone regarding this mate
mackem1989
Striker
I am past this stage in life mate just how it isYou really need to speak to someone regarding this mate
Mate don't ever give up , doesn't matter how dark the days are you have got to fight on
I saw something this week that said, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Even if you can't see it in the moment, it's there.
I know it sounds a bit cliche but it resonated with me, and wanted to share it here mate. Darkness comes and it doesn't ever feel like it'll get light again. But it will.
And keep pushing through whatever you are going through, and talk to those around you / people on here / Samaritans / CALM etc. Whoever you are most comfortable talking to.
CPLforever
Winger
This is interesting and not uncommon. It leads to a complete lack of self care. An almost well I don't care what happensvto me cos I don't want to be here and I dn'to care.
Please be careful cos this can lead to reckless behaviour, (not suicidal behaviour) but reckless behaviour can have consequences too.
mackem1989
Striker
Last time I got like this I ended up in a mental hospital for a few weeks/ month not ashamed to say I’ve been sectioned a few times and maybe that’s where I am heading again
CPLforever
Winger
Please be careful.
Springwell Mackem
Goalkeeper
Absolutely, struggling with mental health is not something to be ashamed of should be talked about, same as accepting help; whether it's from family, friends or services.
Gennaro Savastano
Midfield
Considering just dissapearing for the night tomorrow for some head space. It has been a weird weekend and I feel so anxious and stressed that I think some time completely alone would do me good.
Springwell Mackem
Goalkeeper
Aslong as at least one person is aware of where you're going, go for it.
mackem1989
Striker
ive been through it all I can also say the mental health services in the UK (not the Charities)
I don’t even want to go to the match today as sad as it is in the south stand and it kills me at times might try get a move elsewhere for me and the bairn
D.A
Striker
Move seats? You'll be able to find a pair elsewhere.
mackem1989
Striker
Springwell Mackem
Goalkeeper
What's wrong with the South stand as I'm moving there next season?
mackem1989
Striker
Nothings wrong with it mate just it’s a cattle market and when I’m like this I have little to zero tolerance so less crowded today the better
Springwell Mackem
Goalkeeper
I have the opposite problem in the BCB, paid for a comfy seat but up and down constantly because people need to piss or drink every 5 minutes.
AmblerThorn
Midfield
I can relate to this about elevating to the "I don't care plane". Also, recklessness maybe for a dopamine hit or something.
Hope today has been a bit brighter for you, and everyone else
Gennaro Savastano
Midfield
Didn't get away as I had hoped. Had responsibilities that I am not sure I was told about or not to fulfill. I feel like as though even if I am told something I just struggle to retain the information.
