Depression

[Ciro_DiMarzio]

I know, I just clamoured for face to face but I know there are lots of lovely folks on here that would be happy to hear from me xx

Did they come to your home or did you go to them? I know you find it difficult but getting out and about would do you could. Feel free to tell me to jog on mind as I can't put myself into your personal situation and we all have different issues that others can't understand.

 

[look out piano]

Did they come to your home or did you go to them? I know you find it difficult but getting out and about would do you could. Feel free to tell me to jog on mind as I can't put myself into your personal situation and we all have different issues that others can't understand.

He came to my house

 

[70s traveller]

Thank you my love, I just needed someone to talk to tbh

That's a massive factor, its not quite the same but even the "connection" here can help so don't ever be concerned about posting.

I know, I just clamoured for face to face but I know there are lots of lovely folks on here that would be happy to hear from me xx

Plus tbf there are some that can throw in a "not so lively comment" in threads to change your thought pattern.

I know, I just clamoured for face to face

As I've posted elsewhere, get yourself out to where there are people. Shops, park, spaces, dog walker territory, etc. A chat will begin quickly.

 

[Goat Eyes]

Great to see the positive mindset and actions from posters who have been unable to do that previously.

 

[MigsGoalKicks]

I’ve had my first appointment with a psychiatrist today. He’s confirmed I have panic disorder and prescribed me Pregabalin alongside my Mirtazapine. Anyone had any experience of this drug?

 

[lucky]

I’ve had my first appointment with a psychiatrist today. He’s confirmed I have panic disorder and prescribed me Pregabalin alongside my Mirtazapine. Anyone had any experience of this drug?

Never had them mate but hope they work for you.

 

[Becs]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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[70s traveller]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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Becs, my heart & full sympathy go to you. Please try to continue doing your best until a route out of it can be identified, speak to someone (probably again) that knows your case for the help you obviously need. A route, with referrals, should be drawn up urgently. Please speak to your gp as a starting point. And stay as strong as you can.

There ARE people that can hekp.

 

[RossTheNinja]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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Hang in there Hun. The watch is great mind but makes my stress worse at times.

 

[Turner the Cat]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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Hi Becs - I'm really sorry to hear that and I wish you all the best. Hopefully it is not an issue for you but I just wanted to respond to a particular item you raised in case it helps.

I also have a garmin. I think they can be a really helpful tool to help you understand and manage your health. At the same time, there was also a time when I know it made my situation worse.

Last year I had a cancer misdiagnosis, problems with my back which meant at times I couldnt walk and unexplained debilitating headaches. I became very anxious about my health. That was reflected in my garmin stats for HR, stress and body battery but seeing those stats just made me more anxious about my health and exacerbated the problem.

For example, I might feel flustered, look at my watch, see my heart rate was a bit high then worry and then my heart rate and anxiety would increase further. I became somewhat obsessed and worried about my health stats and checking them all the time. In the end I took my watch off and it was a huge relief. I'm wearing it again now as can use it constructively but it made things worse at the time.

As I say, this might not be an issue for you but I just wanted to share my experience in case it could help you or someone else and also again wish you the best with your situation.

 

[lucky]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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Hello mate I am so sorry and hope you have woke up a little better today. You can always come here and rant all you want as so many caring people on here. As for day to day job wise my daughter at EDF and she says they taking on and it's set wage and work from home , maybe the odd day in the office but it's not based on how many calls you take. I really get the fatigue as I am usually like that everyday but they have asked me to stop taking my protein drinks ( so if you want them you can have them ) might help with the hunger as like a top up. But please take care and who cares what the house looks like ( housework) as would look a lot worse if your not around.

 

[70s traveller]

Hang in there Hun. The watch is great mind but makes my stress worse at times.

Anything that tells a person they are stressed can only contribute to it more. Try to avoid taking notice of it

Last year I had a cancer misdiagnosis, problems with my back which meant at times I couldnt walk and unexplained debiliating headaches. I became very anxious about my health. That was reflected in my garmin stats for HR, stress and body battery but seeing those stats just made me more anxious about my health and exacerbated the problem.

For example, I might feel flustered, look at my watch, see my heart rate was a bit high then worry and then my heart rate and anxiety would increase further. I became somewhat obsessed and worried about my health stats and checking them all the time. In the end I took my watch off and it was a huge relief. I'm wearing it again now as can use it constructively but it made things worse at the time.

As I say, this might not be an issue for you but I just wanted to share my experience in case it could help you or someone else and also again wish you the best with your situation.

Here's an example ^. Use it consructively & don't rely on what it tells you every time you look which becomes a mania.

 

[SPUFF]

@Becs im sure you’ve been through worse and come out of it but dozens on this board will be wishing you well.

 

[lucky]

The good thing about this thread is you can argue with one another on a different topic till you are blue in the face but as soon as anyone messages on here all you get is support, so good on everyone on here and massive respect to you all .

 

[70s traveller]

as soon as anyone messages on here all you get is support, so good on everyone on here and massive respect to you all .

Obviously people on this thread see posts & realise when someone needs a positive comment. Respect is due to anyone that posts or comments.

 

[TAD]

Struggling. I went through menopause way too early because I had surgery to remove my uterus and ovaries as I had endometriosis and PMDD. Menopause has badly affected my joints. I have osteoarthritis now and it's affected my bladder. I'm struggling to do my job as my joints and my body aches so much. I'm on my feet all day and it's a physical job with some heavy lifting. I've had to buy flat old lady shoes as my feet hurt so much.

I'm also in an active crohn's flare. As well as bowel pain, extreme wind and diahorrea, the flare also causes inflammation in joints, fatigue and I've got open sores in my mouth. I'm on a high dose of prednisolone to try and settle that down. The side effects of that drug include insomnia, extreme hunger and fatigue.

This week I've caught a cold. As I'm immunosuppressed, I struggle to fight off simple bugs. I've got chest pain, thick mucus and a cough from that.

I'm struggling to do my job and struggling to do things around the house. The bairn has been helping out, but she's behind in her A-Levels due to the school disruption from RAAC so I feel guilty being a burden on her when she's stressed about school. I've been applying for less physical jobs, but not had any luck yet.

Work in general is bad. Combination of having to do school runs to Durham twice a day as there are no buses and there are roadworks everywhere, so I waste so much time stuck in traffic. I'm stressed all the time about work and getting it done. I'm freelance and paid per call, so the longer I spend sitting in the car, the less calls I can do and the less I earn. There's only my wage coming in and I need to support my daughter. I can't afford to take sick leave as ESA is about £70 a week and I wouldn't get any help with housing as I'm in a mortgaged home. It's a ballache claiming it as you have to jump through hoops and be interrogated to prove you really are sick and I can't be arsed with the hassle of the DWP.

It's all got to me today. I've burst into tears several times and I've just had enough of feeling unwell and struggling to work.

My watch has a body battery and measures body stress. As a comparison, here's today compared with one of the days I was off work in October.

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Really sorry to hear things are difficult for you. The only advice I can think of to offer advice is on your days off prioritise yourself and rest as much as you can. Hopefully there will be some improvement in your daughter's school situation soon. Would there be anyway you could share the school run with other parents?
Wishing you well. I don't know you but you're always there for others and you'll have loads rooting for you.

 

[SPUFF]

The good thing about this thread is you can argue with one another on a different topic till you are blue in the face but as soon as anyone messages on here all you get is support, so good on everyone on here and massive respect to you all .

Fuck off wanker!!!

 

[lucky]

Fuck off wanker!!!

 

[Becs]

Some men on here are taking the piss out of my health. I PM'd one and asked him to leave me alone. To be fair, he sent an apology, but then his mate tagged him in another horrible comment referring to me and they started again. I was already at the end of my tether with other stuff and didn't deal with that well last night. Sorry for posting last night. I just needed to get it out as I was chewed up and ruminating.

Speaking of ruminating, the man who assaulted me and my children posts on here. Seeing his name gives me flashbacks to stuff that happened, like me being pinned on the floor by my throat while he punched me in the chest or he held my son against the wall by his chest and punched him in the face. I wish he'd fuck off. He's the biggest mistake I made in my life and my children were harmed because I met him.

Hello mate I am so sorry and hope you have woke up a little better today. You can always come here and rant all you want as so many caring people on here. As for day to day job wise my daughter at EDF and she says they taking on and it's set wage and work from home , maybe the odd day in the office but it's not based on how many calls you take. I really get the fatigue as I am usually like that everyday but they have asked me to stop taking my protein drinks ( so if you want them you can have them ) might help with the hunger as like a top up. But please take care and who cares what the house looks like ( housework) as would look a lot worse if your not around.

Can you send details of the EDF job please?

I'm contemplating home working. The little bedroom has a child's bed in it that nobody ever sleeps in and a load of clothes and toys that that bairn has grown out of and it all just got dumped in there out the way. I was thinking if I got rid of the junk and redecorated it, I could make a better home office than the one I have now. I've currently got my desk in the utility room which is functional but it's draughty as the window needs replacing and it's north facing so dull in there on cloudy days. I also think it looks crap when I'm on video calls with the washing machine and dryer in the background.

Really sorry to hear things are difficult for you. The only advice I can think of to offer advice is on your days off prioritise yourself and rest as much as you can. Hopefully there will be some improvement in your daughter's school situation soon. Would there be anyway you could share the school run with other parents?
Wishing you well. I don't know you but you're always there for others and you'll have loads rooting for you.

It's awkward as most of her friends who live here went to other sixth forms. I'm also picking my son up from his house on Tues and Weds and taking him to college and back as he can't get there. I'm following the bus strike thread on here and hoping they can find a breakthrough and get back to running the buses soon.

 

[lucky]

Some men on here are taking the piss out of my health. I PM'd one and asked him to leave me alone. To be fair, he sent an apology, but then his mate tagged him in another horrible comment referring to me and they started again. I was already at the end of my tether with other stuff and didn't deal with that well last night. Sorry for posting last night. I just needed to get it out as I was chewed up and ruminating.

Speaking of ruminating, the man who assaulted me and my children posts on here. Seeing his name gives me flashbacks to stuff that happened, like me being pinned on the floor by my throat while he punched me in the chest or he held my son against the wall by his chest and punched him in the face. I wish he'd fuck off. He's the biggest mistake I made in my life and my children were harmed because I met him.



Can you send details of the EDF job please?

I'm contemplating home working. The little bedroom has a child's bed in it that nobody ever sleeps in and a load of clothes and toys that that bairn has grown out of and it all just got dumped in there out the way. I was thinking if I got rid of the junk and redecorated it, I could make a better home office than the one I have now. I've currently got my desk in the utility room which is functional but it's draughty as the window needs replacing and it's north facing so dull in there on cloudy days. I also think it looks crap when I'm on video calls with the washing machine and dryer in the background.

I am so sorry to hear about your past as that sounds vile what you and the kids have been through and as for people on here posting things , we'll you already know you have plenty on this thread who will fight your corner.
I will get the details about EDF off my daughter and post them soon as she sends them. The good thing with that is no video calls so you can sit anywhere you want without anyone seeing the house if you having a bad day. I do know my daughter works 8am till 4.30pm Monday to Friday but I will get all the details ASAP. In the meantime you take care and stay safe mate.

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@Becs that link says there is no jobs available so I will ask my daughter to ask at work how to apply as they have taken loads on.