I'm going to take this at face value, and ignore some of your previous posts. I talk to you as a white man who grew up in North Yorkshire surrounded not by out-and-out racism, but little accidental things here and there. I certainly have said the wrong things in the past and have done the wrong things. So I certainly get how confusing it all is, I bet everyone on here has been confused at one time or another.
But ultimately, if you're confused then you have a responsibility to educate yourself. Quite frankly others shouldn't be hurt by your ignorance because you can't be arsed to listen and learn. All the information you need is out there. There are books, audiobooks, websites, and podcasts. YouTube would be a fantastic place to start.