Depression

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joemcdokes said:
What is it you are trying to do that knocks you back...?
You don't have to answer on here, is it really important to where you are in your life right now..?
Can it not be left until you get to a place where it won't be as much a negative for you...?
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Exercise for one. I know all about it's benefits to helping with depression and often make plans but never go through with them. Work, socialising as well, I promise myself I'll do this and that but just never can, prefer to lie in bed and self loathe.

I'm hoping that the pills will help me to start with this but what if they don't... Everything is just a massive effort. Then I begin to question whether I'm just lazy, but I wasn't always like this. I just don't get enjoyment out of anything these days. I honestly can't remember the last time I was happy.
 


Rovers said:
Exercise for one. I know all about it's benefits to helping with depression and often make plans but never go through with them. Work, socialising as well, I promise myself I'll do this and that but just never can, prefer to lie in bed and self loathe.

I'm hoping that the pills will help me to start with this but what if they don't... Everything is just a massive effort. Then I begin to question whether I'm just lazy, but I wasn't always like this. I just don't get enjoyment out of anything these days. I honestly can't remember the last time I was happy.
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almost scaring me now mate, beginning to wonder if i have another self who has created a new account here.
only difference is, i KNOW i am lazy but i cant feckin help it.
forget happiness, like anything else if you look for it you wont find it, as you will no doubt have found out by now, keeping the mind occupied is the only way to stop the constant negative thoughts.
i play an online game where a few others meet up on IRC and we chatter most of the day about anything, with my sleep 'patterns' i tend to be in there most of the time and am lucky the players are from around the world.
 
Just been on the telly Ricky Hatton suffered from it and thought about topping himself.
As I said earlier in the thread we all wear a mask and it's nowt to be ashamed of.
 
i know there have been the odd tongue in cheek comments in this thread and others on the subject and i understand how it looks to those who have never suffered, i mean, how can anyone with a job and a loving family all in good health suddenly turn into a 'hater of life'?
the human mind is a strange thing and while we all like to think we can cope with whatever life throws at us sometimes the smallest thing can trigger a bout of depression but when people look deeper it usually stems from years of putting on that brave face to the rest of the world.
if there is stress in your life, do not brush it to one side, get it sorted asap....you may think it is dealt with but it can sit there ticking over in your subconscious with all the other things stored there over the years and eventually.....you wake up with a different outlook.
 
samwise said:
i know there have been the odd tongue in cheek comments in this thread and others on the subject and i understand how it looks to those who have never suffered, i mean, how can anyone with a job and a loving family all in good health suddenly turn into a 'hater of life'?
the human mind is a strange thing and while we all like to think we can cope with whatever life throws at us sometimes the smallest thing can trigger a bout of depression but when people look deeper it usually stems from years of putting on that brave face to the rest of the world.
if there is stress in your life, do not brush it to one side, get it sorted asap....you may think it is dealt with but it can sit there ticking over in your subconscious with all the other things stored there over the years and eventually.....you wake up with a different outlook.
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Well said mate, good post. I think in the end that it boils down to the fact that those who havent got it quite simpldont understand what it is really like. And thats trying to sound as least patronising as possible
 
I have had depression for 17 years on and off 4 years ago i
was very close to ending it i had the shotgun in my mouth
and was about to pull the trigger.
Having read various threads on here lately about how somebody
could do it, I thought my family were better off without the snappy
moody boring nutcase that i had become and no amount of
reasoning was telling me otherwise.
So off i went to a quite spot near home sat down had a cig
loaded gun thought who would miss me concluded that a few
would pull the trigger for me.
So there iam sitting gun in mouth about to end it when i got what felt like
somebody digging there fingers into my ribs know thats the sort of thing
my grandad used to do, he was always joking around and i idolised him.
That stopped me in my traks i dont know if that was just me stopping
myself or him reaching out from the grave but it gave me a kick up the arse,
have sold the guns told a few people who i should have that i have deppresion and at the moment iam ok .
To those suffering if you need to talk either via pm or phone get in touch
stay strong
 
Shaw tarse said:
I have had depression for 17 years on and off 4 years ago i
was very close to ending it i had the shotgun in my mouth
and was about to pull the trigger.
Having read various threads on here lately about how somebody
could do it, I thought my family were better off without the snappy
moody boring nutcase that i had become and no amount of
reasoning was telling me otherwise.
So off i went to a quite spot near home sat down had a cig
loaded gun thought who would miss me concluded that a few
would pull the trigger for me.
So there iam sitting gun in mouth about to end it when i got what felt like
somebody digging there fingers into my ribs know thats the sort of thing
my grandad used to do, he was always joking around and i idolised him.
That stopped me in my traks i dont know if that was just me stopping
myself or him reaching out from the grave but it gave me a kick up the arse,
have sold the guns told a few people who i should have that i have deppresion and at the moment iam ok .
To those suffering if you need to talk either via pm or phone get in touch
stay strong
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Brave and excellent post marra.
 
Shaw tarse said:
I have had depression for 17 years on and off 4 years ago i
was very close to ending it i had the shotgun in my mouth
and was about to pull the trigger.
Having read various threads on here lately about how somebody
could do it, I thought my family were better off without the snappy
moody boring nutcase that i had become and no amount of
reasoning was telling me otherwise.
So off i went to a quite spot near home sat down had a cig
loaded gun thought who would miss me concluded that a few
would pull the trigger for me.
So there iam sitting gun in mouth about to end it when i got what felt like
somebody digging there fingers into my ribs know thats the sort of thing
my grandad used to do, he was always joking around and i idolised him.
That stopped me in my traks i dont know if that was just me stopping
myself or him reaching out from the grave but it gave me a kick up the arse,
have sold the guns told a few people who i should have that i have deppresion and at the moment iam ok .
To those suffering if you need to talk either via pm or phone get in touch
stay strong
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bad for your health mate
reading this left me thinking 'bloody hell, sometimes i don't realise how lucky i am' i have a right whinge going to work on a monday, think life is shit, i hate my job etc, etc, but as the week goes on i get happier and happier. i need to step back more and think...howld on, i'm lucky to have a job to get pissed off over, i've got my health, lovely wife, home etc
right eye opener this thread
 
Shaw tarse said:
I have had depression for 17 years on and off 4 years ago i
was very close to ending it i had the shotgun in my mouth
and was about to pull the trigger.
Having read various threads on here lately about how somebody
could do it, I thought my family were better off without the snappy
moody boring nutcase that i had become and no amount of
reasoning was telling me otherwise.
So off i went to a quite spot near home sat down had a cig
loaded gun thought who would miss me concluded that a few
would pull the trigger for me.
So there iam sitting gun in mouth about to end it when i got what felt like
somebody digging there fingers into my ribs know thats the sort of thing
my grandad used to do, he was always joking around and i idolised him.
That stopped me in my traks i dont know if that was just me stopping
myself or him reaching out from the grave but it gave me a kick up the arse,
have sold the guns told a few people who i should have that i have deppresion and at the moment iam ok .
To those suffering if you need to talk either via pm or phone get in touch
stay strong
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Brave post mate.

Have you got a dog?
 
This thread is great, it's such a relief to know that I'm not alone in feeling how I do.

I really recommend this site,

http://www.moodscope.com/welcome

it has little tests you can take every day that help you track your mood, I find it very helpful. It's a good way of taking control of your moods yourself and can be an early warning system to see if you're actually having a bad day or it's a steady decline. You don't need to subscribe to the 'pay' version, the free side of it is more than adequate :)

hope this helps.
 
Peegee said:
Thanks for sharing your experiences everyone this is extremely useful and great to know that no one is ever alone.

I sometimes stutter too and it's normally when I'm thinking about what to say and thinking about my eye contact or lack of it or if I am trying to make eye contact - am I coming across normal or am I staring at them like a complete weirdo.

I never suffer from panic attacks but when I was a uni I'd suffer an odd experience whenever I'd be in a seminar. Just a small group of say 8 students and the lecturer in a circle discussing a subject or book or something. I'd be asked a question about something or other and before I'd speak all the moisture in my mouth would just dissapear. It would be the extremest case of a dry throat ever to the point where I'd be in physical pain and having to take deep breaths just to breathe.

I can be a bit of recluse today - I'm fine with my mates but at work for example, I can't talk to anyone, make eye contact...when they ask me a question it's always just a one or two word answer from me. It's an internship too - I'm not even getting paid and don't think they'd dream of giving me a job if there was one. I wouldn't give me a job if I was looking at me. I'd thinking I was an anti-social weirdo! What makes it worse is the people I work with a lovely and laid back so if I could talk to anyone it would be them, if anyone would accept me - it would be them. Yet I can't bring myself to even start a conversation or look them in the eye.

Sorry for going on and on. Hope it helps some of the contributors to the thread see that they aren't alone and they aren't the only ones. :-D
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I don't know if he's posted but Captain Fishpaste was, or is, a fellow sufferer and he's a confident lad, or appears to be. Reasonably sure he once posted about ways to control, or at least live with a stammer. Drop him a PM I'm sure he'll be only too pleased to help if he can.
 
---Nemo--- said:
I don't know if he's posted but Captain Fishpaste was, or is, a fellow sufferer and he's a confident lad, or appears to be. Reasonably sure he once posted about ways to control, or at least live with a stammer. Drop him a PM I'm sure he'll be only too pleased to help if he can.
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Must admit that the Cap'n went way up in my estimations during that discussion.
 
One of the best threads ive seen on here (2nd username so fuck off with the join date shite)

Its nice to see people being nice without petty arguments
 
Shaw tarse said:
I have had depression for 17 years on and off 4 years ago i
was very close to ending it i had the shotgun in my mouth
and was about to pull the trigger.
Having read various threads on here lately about how somebody
could do it, I thought my family were better off without the snappy
moody boring nutcase that i had become and no amount of
reasoning was telling me otherwise.
So off i went to a quite spot near home sat down had a cig
loaded gun thought who would miss me concluded that a few
would pull the trigger for me.
So there iam sitting gun in mouth about to end it when i got what felt like
somebody digging there fingers into my ribs know thats the sort of thing
my grandad used to do, he was always joking around and i idolised him.
That stopped me in my traks i dont know if that was just me stopping
myself or him reaching out from the grave but it gave me a kick up the arse,
have sold the guns told a few people who i should have that i have deppresion and at the moment iam ok .
To those suffering if you need to talk either via pm or phone get in touch
stay strong
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brave and very strong post that...This is the perfect response to the poster early doors that said "everyone has it"
 
Astounding the numbers affected, but love the bravery and the kind worsds people are offering.

Was discussing with our lass, obviously in say the 70s/80s this would be more or lee unheard of yet people faced far harder lives (imo) than we face now.

Would you say people were made of sterner stuff then or hid it better?

Id say both, but I also say proper neighbours/colleagues would assist families then. Every kernts just out for themselves now (Thatchers Britain as Paddy would say).
 
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