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mackem_jo2 said:
having a crappy night, really really tired of fighting this fucker i really am.

just want to go outside and walk and walk and walk, sounds daft i know and once I'm out there i'd feel so exposed and obvious to all that I'm crackers.

I just want it to go away, i want to be normal.
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Keep fighting it mate, and get help......it works, I've seen it first hand.
 

mackem_jo2 said:
having a crappy night, really really tired of fighting this fucker i really am.

just want to go outside and walk and walk and walk, sounds daft i know and once I'm out there i'd feel so exposed and obvious to all that I'm crackers.

I just want it to go away, i want to be normal.
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you arent crackers mate. theres something inside of you wants to walk, might help. Dont worry about everyone else, anyone who judges you is ignorant
 
Narraback said:
Keep fighting it mate, and get help......it works, I've seen it first hand.
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I'm getting help, on meds etc. just been going through this such a long time that I'm feeling exhausted and like the fight is draining out of me.

Dibble said:
you arent crackers mate. theres something inside of you wants to walk, might help. Dont worry about everyone else, anyone who judges you is ignorant
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if i was a bloke it'd be different, as a lass i wouldn't like to be walking the streets at this time :(
 
mackem_jo2 said:
having a crappy night, really really tired of fighting this fucker i really am.

just want to go outside and walk and walk and walk, sounds daft i know and once I'm out there i'd feel so exposed and obvious to all that I'm crackers.

I just want it to go away, i want to be normal.
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Watch this mate

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I've suffered with depression and whilst you may feel like your standing on the edge of the black hole you will mean a huge amount to a lot of people. Talk to them. Confide in them. Your not alone although you may feel like it. We are all here for you.
 
mackem_jo2 said:
I'm getting help, on meds etc. just been going through this such a long time that I'm feeling exhausted and like the fight is draining out of me.
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Go back and tell them. There's never only one way. I thought I was going to lose my mam when I was in my 30's to this illness, she was close to giving up but she managed to eventually get the help she needed. 16 years later and you wouldn't think she was the same person. She has 6 grandchildren she may have never seen and enjoys life to the full even in her late 70's. There are ways to beat this illness, but sometimes it takes more time.
 
mackem_jo2 said:
I'm getting help, on meds etc. just been going through this such a long time that I'm feeling exhausted and like the fight is draining out of me.



if i was a bloke it'd be different, as a lass i wouldn't like to be walking the streets at this time :(
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Do it tomorrow then, I will come with you if ya up for it, Ive plenty to think about.
 
Snappy said:
Watch this mate

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I've suffered with depression and whilst you may feel like your standing on the edge of the black hole you will mean a huge amount to a lot of people. Talk to them. Confide in them. Your not alone although you may feel like it. We are all here for you.
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thanks pet, I've seen it a few times and its spot on. I'm open with my family and friends but i have bipolar and essentially I'm in a battle with my own head. it wears me out but it means a lot knowing you lot are here.

Narraback said:
Go back and tell them. There's never only one way. I thought I was going to lose my mam when I was in my 30's to this illness, she was close to giving up but she managed to eventually get the help she needed. 16 years later and you wouldn't think she was the same person. She has 6 grandchildren she may have never seen and enjoys life to the full even in her late 70's. There are ways to beat this illness, but sometimes it takes more time.
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I'm back on thursday so i will, they've told me its going to take a long time but thats so hard to deal with. I'm away from a job that i love that i can't do right now & it'll not be long before sick pay etc gets cut and ill have more financial issues to deal with too.

but above all that i just want my head to shut the fuck up and leave me alone.
 
mackem_jo2 said:
thanks pet, I've seen it a few times and its spot on. I'm open with my family and friends but i have bipolar and essentially I'm in a battle with my own head. it wears me out but it means a lot knowing you lot are here.
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That's the one thing you can't get rid of, us lot :lol:

Plenty on here have suffered to varying degrees. Judging by the amount of threads and posts on the subject many are willing to share their battles and are always willing to lend an ear as it were.
 
thank you for the support last night, ended up reaching for my sleeping pills and knocking myself out. fingers crossed for a better day today, going to have that walk if i can (my meds make me so tired).

even secretly hoping i'll make it to the match tonight!!
 
mackem_jo2 said:
thank you for the support last night, ended up reaching for my sleeping pills and knocking myself out. fingers crossed for a better day today, going to have that walk if i can (my meds make me so tired).

even secretly hoping i'll make it to the match tonight!!
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Aye the match will help :-)

Best of luck with the progress in all seriousness
 
mackem_jo2 said:
having a crappy night, really really tired of fighting this fucker i really am.

just want to go outside and walk and walk and walk, sounds daft i know and once I'm out there i'd feel so exposed and obvious to all that I'm crackers.

I just want it to go away, i want to be normal.
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Our lass (no) gets like that, she has been on the meds etc and it doesn't really help. She is now going down the homeopathic route and has been great for a while now. When she is bad she is really bad, so long may it continue. Have you tried anything like that ? She uses St Johns wort and stuff like that.
 
chopsfc007 said:
million dollar question how do you know if its depression or just feeling down all the time
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Very valid question . Sleep , appetite , optimism , self worth , energy, speed of movement , concentration , interest in things ( pleasure ) , thoughts of not wanting to be here .
If you experience impact on most of these most of the time for over 2-3 weeks you might be sliding to a depression .
I think consistent negative thoughts about self, others , the world and hopelessness that this could change is the big give away though .
Any actual thought that you would be better off out if it ( other than one, immediately dismissed , unrepeated observation ) straight to GP.
 
Skandhaless said:
Very valid question . Sleep , appetite , optimism , self worth , energy, speed of movement , concentration , interest in things ( pleasure ) , thoughts of not wanting to be here .
If you experience impact on most of these most of the time for over 2-3 weeks you might be sliding to a depression .
I think consistent negative thoughts about self, others , the world and hopelessness that this could change is the big give away though .
Any actual thought that you would be better off out if it ( other than one, immediately dismissed , unrepeated observation ) straight to GP.
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Good post, I can get like that but manage to snap out of it. I've had numerous conversations with the Mrs and that is how she gets.
 
Skandhaless said:
Very valid question . Sleep , appetite , optimism , self worth , energy, speed of movement , concentration , interest in things ( pleasure ) , thoughts of not wanting to be here .
If you experience impact on most of these most of the time for over 2-3 weeks you might be sliding to a depression .
I think consistent negative thoughts about self, others , the world and hopelessness that this could change is the big give away though .
Any actual thought that you would be better off out if it ( other than one, immediately dismissed , unrepeated observation ) straight to GP.
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the hopelessness, yeah i get that bit :(

my problem is made worse by the highs, somehow the depression is easier to cope with. i can to a certain extent 'plod on' as I'm so used to it. when I'm high though, I'm amazing and fearless and restless and can't concentrate and trying to contain that is so exhausting, especially around my kids :(
 
mackem_jo2 said:
the hopelessness, yeah i get that bit :(

my problem is made worse by the highs, somehow the depression is easier to cope with. i can to a certain extent 'plod on' as I'm so used to it. when I'm high though, I'm amazing and fearless and restless and can't concentrate and trying to contain that is so exhausting, especially around my kids :(
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Have you been checked for bi polar ?
 
I'm okay, just plodding along but looking forward to Christmas tbh, can't wait to see my son squeal and flap in excitement come Christmas day.................the fortnight off work will be just the ticket too, I need to recharge my batteries and spend some quality time with my son :)
 
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