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Ciro_DiMarzio said:
Hope people are doing ok. I won't be posting anymore details on this thread as a couple of posters (not people who regulary post in this thread) have used things I have said in this thread to try and wind me up in other threads so it eems counter productive for me to open up here.
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No way? Pricks.

If posting on here helps you in any way at all then block them mate.
 

MigsGoalKicks said:
Feel positive for a few days then this panic disorder hits me like a brick. It’s just like non stop suffering at the minute and I can’t function normally. Have turned to the drink this week and it only makes it worse the next day but bloody hell them few hours feeling normal is fantastic. If I ever do get over this, I’ll never take anything for granted again. I can’t look forward to things. We’ve got a week away in a cottage booked next month. I’m not looking forward to it at all, I’m just concerned about surviving it with as little panic as possible. I can’t look forward to things anymore. Just ranting because I’m so fking sick of not being able to function normally. I’m asking my lass to give me a lift into work cos i can’t even get on a bloody bus or walk 20 mins to get there.
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Wondered how you're getting on this working week
 
lucky said:
Proves my point ❤️
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Concern for fellow bus sufferers

Swear the lousy things impact my mental health

Confronted another one this morning after he told a kid he'd "take that look off your face"

Wtf is wrong with these people

Probably doesn't help am either seriously on edge or a bit manic still - which am sort of trying to understand what's going on with that

Hey ho. Another great start to a day. Have a good un!
 
de Ruyter said:
Concern for fellow bus sufferers

Swear the lousy things impact my mental health

Confronted another one this morning after he told a kid he'd "take that look off your face"

Wtf is wrong with these people

Probably doesn't help am either seriously on edge or a bit manic still - which am sort of trying to understand what's going on with that

Hey ho. Another great start to a day. Have a good un!
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Have you saw that film falling down hahha I can see you being that man
 
lucky said:
Have you saw that film falling down hahha I can see you being that man
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Aye! It's almost a cliche

Previously mild mannered middle aged man finally snaps after unwittingly stumbling into constant daily shit

Was telling the counsellor bod at the weekend I don't know how I find myself in situations I've never gone looking for because am pretty much the last person who seeks out drama
 
de Ruyter said:
Aye! It's almost a cliche

Previously mild mannered middle aged man finally snaps after unwittingly stumbling into constant daily shit

Was telling the counsellor bod at the weekend I don't know how I find myself in situations I've never gone looking for because am pretty much the last person who seeks out drama
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Don't buy a gun or if you decide to I have a list 🤣
 
lucky said:
Have you saw that film falling down hahha I can see you being that man
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Mate. Your post came true

And it wasn't me

Had the misfortune to be approaching the bus station tonight

Heard this enormous commotion, yelling and screaming

Upon nearing, turns out it was a lad I know in a huge altercation with a bus driver

Thinking I can't just walk by and leave the lad like that (he lives near me. I don't know him really except to talk to on the bus but know he's got personal issues going on).

Watching security guards likely on the brink of phoning the police

So attempted to de-escalate the situation and at least get him on the bus home

I failed. Literally the bus driver bouncing around the pair of us like a boxer. Actual hilarious

Feel heartily sorry for the lad to have snapped like that with a crowd watching. Last I saw of him he got in a taxi cos he was told he wasn't allowed on a bus tonight

Off to inform arriva I was a witness (as has someone else I know)

But aye, a demonstration of when things get too much it doesn't take a lot for people to proper flip.
 
de Ruyter said:
Mate. Your post came true

And it wasn't me

Had the misfortune to be approaching the bus station tonight

Heard this enormous commotion, yelling and screaming

Upon nearing, turns out it was a lad I know in a huge altercation with a bus driver

Thinking I can't just walk by and leave the lad like that (he lives near me. I don't know him really except to talk to on the bus but know he's got personal issues going on).

Watching security guards likely on the brink of phoning the police

So attempted to de-escalate the situation and at least get him on the bus home

I failed. Literally the bus driver bouncing around the pair of us like a boxer. Actual hilarious

Feel heartily sorry for the lad to have snapped like that with a crowd watching. Last I saw of him he got in a taxi cos he was told he wasn't allowed on a bus tonight

Off to inform arriva I was a witness (as has someone else I know)

But aye, a demonstration of when things get too much it doesn't take a lot for people to proper flip.
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Jesus :eek: and your right though mate , when people wound up like a coiled spring it can be the smallest thing that makes people just snap.
 
lucky said:
Jesus :eek: and your right though mate , when people wound up like a coiled spring it can be the smallest thing that makes people just snap.
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Awful like. And just utterly bemusing really. Seen people unravel on that bus before

Comes to something when you're Facebook friends with other bus passengers purely so we all log incidents about it for reporting

All that just to get to work and back

Repeatedly got told I was a liar on here about it like. Such are the ways of the SMB
 
de Ruyter said:
Feel guilty about complaining now. That's as much because I misread situations so often I have to automatically doubt myself so as to not make things worse

Jesus I so get this post

The panic is crippling. I got asked why I hadn't rang the boss back by 3pm as agreed last week

Blurted out because I was lying in the foetal position trying to get over a panic attack and I was concerned if I did ring you my next call would be an ambulance

Also, the bus to work kills me too by the way. Had some terrible times on it. Now it's self perpetuating. Oh shit am on a bus, remember you have to panic on a bus etc.

The amount of times I've stood there thinking for fucks sake can no one give me a lift today - so it's good you've got that bit of security for what might be a difficult few days

Think the only way I deal with it now is to think at least if I pass out then am among people who can get help. And then even weirder lately, right am just gonna actually enjoy this feeling of being completely spaced out of my mind

Crackers

And I don't think I've ever had anyone ever suggest anything that really works for me
Get your frustration with it all

Ps. Am a bit manic today and posting like a, well, a maniac - so apologies if am no help whatsoever
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Sorry for late reply. After my rant I logged out and had a bit of a break from all social media. I was just sick as owt when i posted the last post. Needed a break from everything.

How long have you suffered with it? Are you on any medication for it? My pregabalin has just been upped today after a talk with my psychiatrist. He says I need to change my state of mind. When I feel a panic attack coming on sit down and embrace it. I know it’s not going to hurt me so just remain calm and get through it. Will give it a try, will be bloody hard like.
 
MigsGoalKicks said:
Sorry for late reply. After my rant I logged out and had a bit of a break from all social media. I was just sick as owt when i posted the last post. Needed a break from everything.

How long have you suffered with it? Are you on any medication for it? My pregabalin has just been upped today after a talk with my psychiatrist. He says I need to change my state of mind. When I feel a panic attack coming on sit down and embrace it. I know it’s not going to hurt me so just remain calm and get through it. Will give it a try, will be bloody hard like.
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Just off to bed but spotted the notification. Glad you sound a bit better.

A lifetime but probably 15 years ago the first panic attack. The last 5 years have been really bad. Go through long waves of it

I must remember the name pregablin. I've seen it on here before. I really need to go to the GP but am sort of steeling/preparing myself because they tend to fob me off so I'll specifically ask I think

And aye. Social media. Good idea. I end up posting bollocks on here just to keep my mind occupied (half the time I dont even know what/why am posting), but don't bother with any other form.

And definitely the embracing thing. That's my latest strategy. Tell myself wheeeyyyy am spaced out to buggery here so I'll just ride it till it goes

Sounds crackers but it becomes a case of clinging to anything that might work

Cheers!
 
de Ruyter said:
Wondered how you're getting on this working week
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Work nights so I haven’t been at work since Monday morning. In 4 out of 5 nights starting tomorrow. Have my lift sorted for tomorrow night thankfully!
de Ruyter said:
Just off to bed but spotted the notification. Glad you sound a bit better.

A lifetime but probably 15 years ago the first panic attack. The last 5 years have been really bad. Go through long waves of it

I must remember the name pregablin. I've seen it on here before. I really need to go to the GP but am sort of steeling/preparing myself because they tend to fob me off so I'll specifically ask I think

And aye. Social media. Good idea. I end up posting bollocks on here just to keep my mind occupied (half the time I dont even know what/why am posting), but don't bother with any other form.

And definitely the embracing thing. That's my latest strategy. Tell myself wheeeyyyy am spaced out to buggery here so I'll just ride it till it goes

Sounds crackers but it becomes a case of clinging to anything that might work

Cheers!
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I kept on going for ECG’s etc for the past year or so. I kept telling them I have panic attacks but none of them done anything about it. Loads fobbed me off too, until I saw one who referred me to my psychiatrist. Was the same when I had depression years ago. First thing they’d ask was “do you want a sick note?”

He actually mentioned today people who have panic disorders it’s like they get a mild form of PTSD. And it’s bloody true.
 
MigsGoalKicks said:
Work nights so I haven’t been at work since Monday morning. In 4 out of 5 nights starting tomorrow. Have my lift sorted for tomorrow night thankfully!

I kept on going for ECG’s etc for the past year or so. I kept telling them I have panic attacks but none of them done anything about it. Loads fobbed me off too, until I saw one who referred me to my psychiatrist. Was the same when I had depression years ago. First thing they’d ask was “do you want a sick note?”

He actually mentioned today people who have panic disorders it’s like they get a mild form of PTSD. And it’s bloody true.
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So true. "The NICE guidelines tell me to give you a sick note and recommend hoping for the best"

The GP I've mentioned previously seems to have two approaches
1. You've been prescribed something for years so you should be grateful

2. I'll up your dose but there'll never be a follow up or a meds review because it's forbidden for patients to have 2 appointments about the same thing

And lifts are good. Am dealing with my bus panics this week by permanently angry about them.

Actually think a predominant other emotion, like anger or even being highly amused by something maybe overrides the panic a bit

Wouldn't recommend it as an approach though
 
MigsGoalKicks said:
Got the bus to work for the first time in a while tonight. Was so close to going over the edge 3 or 4 times. Rang people to get me through it. Get this shift over and get me home where I feel safe. This isn’t living. It’s just surviving.
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I sort of think, or the way I work myself is concentrate on surviving until you can start living again and sometimes to help you survive you may need some medication or tweaks in your medication and someone to talk too and time. Reading your post, my heart feels for you, please please keep working to get through it.
 
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