Maravilla
Striker
Sorry to hear that mate, although glad you didn't go through with it.
Hopefully everyone on here who is effected by this bastard of a disease has a fantastic festive season with their families.
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Sorry to hear that mate, although glad you didn't go through with it.
Hopefully everyone on here who is effected by this bastard of a disease has a fantastic festive season with their families.
Sebastien
Striker
Anyone catch the Stan Collymore depression documentary on Talksport tonight?
Compelled me to post. I've 'suffered' on and off for 10 years now, when I didn't see or realise the signs and just thought I was a "shit person" and had a very close call to wiping myself off the face of the planet. Thankfully it never ended that way but it was close. Scared my parents to death and a very few close friends I confided in.
Problem is i'm always seen as the life and soul, hence me highlighting 'suffered' previously. The vast majority of my friends wouldn't believe I had it. It's hard work keeping up that persona, i'm sure plenty will identify with that. I often have spells when it comes back but thankfully I now know the signs and couldn't imagine doing what I did all those years ago, despite the depths it drags you into.
It's cost me a couple of relationships in my life, one very recently, makes me believe in my head i'll never be able to form a true close bond with someone. That certainly doesn't help. I'm 38, i'm not expecting a miracle cure.
I'll admit I often self medicate a bit on a weekend behind closed doors but still manage to hold down a decent job thankfully.
Work is a good distraction so keeps me well away from a glass during the week.
There's just times it's somewhat comforting to know there's others going through the exact feeling of intense isolation that often tries to engulf you.
Compelled me to post. I've 'suffered' on and off for 10 years now, when I didn't see or realise the signs and just thought I was a "shit person" and had a very close call to wiping myself off the face of the planet. Thankfully it never ended that way but it was close. Scared my parents to death and a very few close friends I confided in.
Problem is i'm always seen as the life and soul, hence me highlighting 'suffered' previously. The vast majority of my friends wouldn't believe I had it. It's hard work keeping up that persona, i'm sure plenty will identify with that. I often have spells when it comes back but thankfully I now know the signs and couldn't imagine doing what I did all those years ago, despite the depths it drags you into.
It's cost me a couple of relationships in my life, one very recently, makes me believe in my head i'll never be able to form a true close bond with someone. That certainly doesn't help. I'm 38, i'm not expecting a miracle cure.
I'll admit I often self medicate a bit on a weekend behind closed doors but still manage to hold down a decent job thankfully.
Work is a good distraction so keeps me well away from a glass during the week.
There's just times it's somewhat comforting to know there's others going through the exact feeling of intense isolation that often tries to engulf you.
maccster31
Striker
Ive suffered for years with it and recently diagnosed with mild bi-polar, now all under control i hope.
It isnt easy to deal with. I've lost a couple of jobs through it, nearly fucked up recent degree though it most of all I have fucked up my marriage through it. This is what hurts the most. She is the most amazing person anyone could meet, I married her and I fucked it up by being stupid, not just once, which i was forgiven for, but another time more recently. Now we cant truely recover and I think its only right I let her go to find someone who can treat her right.
we both still love each other, but this bloody black feelings inside don't help and can come back anytime for short or long periods.
I wish I could be normal, be happily married and have our family as one.
It isnt easy to deal with. I've lost a couple of jobs through it, nearly fucked up recent degree though it most of all I have fucked up my marriage through it. This is what hurts the most. She is the most amazing person anyone could meet, I married her and I fucked it up by being stupid, not just once, which i was forgiven for, but another time more recently. Now we cant truely recover and I think its only right I let her go to find someone who can treat her right.
we both still love each other, but this bloody black feelings inside don't help and can come back anytime for short or long periods.
I wish I could be normal, be happily married and have our family as one.
Is it fuck, man.
If I could have my ex back, I would. I don't want her to get with someone else, I want her here with me. Sadly for me, that ship has sailed, that bridge has been burnt etc.
However, since it appears as if it hasn't, f***ing pull yourself together. I don't mean the bi-polar, I mean the shit about your lass. Does she fuck deserve someone who treats her right, you love her, you keep her. Unless she truly wants to leave you like, but if she doesn't, don't give her to someone 'who deserves her' thank you lucky stars she's yours.
Imagine we got absolutely battered by City in this cup final for 93 minutes, absolutely battered but it's 0-0. Hart drops a clanger and scores an own goal. Would we deserve to win? Nah, but you won't catch me giving City the f***ing cup.
Doctor Diesel
Striker
Absolutely class
It's a shallow example to use but haway man you don't give up something you f***ing love cos you think it deserves better. You thank your lucky stars it wants to stay
Maccster.
Horrible thought but lets say your lass got cancer. Would you stay till the bitter end? Course you would.
This affliction is no different. Be 100% open. If shes how she sounds shel see you through it. In sickness and in health n all that.
Ive suffered and seen stress/depression and its awful i know.
Maybe the biggest issue with it now is the quantity of people who wrongly pull the 'stress card' makes genuine cases get less care/attention.
Horrible thought but lets say your lass got cancer. Would you stay till the bitter end? Course you would.
This affliction is no different. Be 100% open. If shes how she sounds shel see you through it. In sickness and in health n all that.
Ive suffered and seen stress/depression and its awful i know.
Maybe the biggest issue with it now is the quantity of people who wrongly pull the 'stress card' makes genuine cases get less care/attention.
wakey
Midfield
Didn't want to start my own thread...
I haven't been diagnosed with depression or anything but more and more recently like 4 months I've been down...
I've been fine when around people sometimes its been more of a front. but soon as I get on my own I just get proper down. Really there is nothing in particular I'm down about just when I'm by myself I can think of no better way to describe it than numb. I go days when I'm not hungry and force myself to eat then others I'll want to pig out.
The only emotion I tend to show now is anger my fuse is so short and the littlest thing will irritate me to the point of near explosion. Tonight I've been just laying on my bed staring at the ceiling wishing it all away.
Sorry for long post just had to spout some shite my heads swimming
I haven't been diagnosed with depression or anything but more and more recently like 4 months I've been down...
I've been fine when around people sometimes its been more of a front. but soon as I get on my own I just get proper down. Really there is nothing in particular I'm down about just when I'm by myself I can think of no better way to describe it than numb. I go days when I'm not hungry and force myself to eat then others I'll want to pig out.
The only emotion I tend to show now is anger my fuse is so short and the littlest thing will irritate me to the point of near explosion. Tonight I've been just laying on my bed staring at the ceiling wishing it all away.
Sorry for long post just had to spout some shite my heads swimming
Batdad
Striker
Go and see your GP mate. Does your mood improve when you're in the "piggin out" phase?
Peterlee James
Winger
I felt the same as this maybe 3 month ago, I broke up with my girlfriend after 6 year (I'm 20) didn't really know what to do anymore, wasn't acting the same and constantly was feeling down.
Like you said when your with someone your fine, maybe the feeling is lonelyness? But if its the same as me.. I found that when I occupied myself I was fine, didn't really have anything to do with company.. Maybe try and get yourself into a routine.. go for runs, learn an instrument.. seems daft I know but these Kinda things helped me. Plan ahead, It worked for me. Was a horrible patch I went through, went on for about 4 month and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Im no expert and this probably wont have helped, But I hope it does.
wakey
Midfield
My mood doesn't improve I crave shite food then eat it and feel worse[DOUBLEPOST=1392159331][/DOUBLEPOST]
Thanks for the reply, I'm the same age as you... I must say your right on the occupying concept it's just as soon as I have time to think I over think everything, started going to the gym almost daily feel great there and for a while after its normally the end of the day when I get to going to bed time I seem to just feel like I've been hit by a train just feel horrible
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Batdad
Striker
That's really good advice. Spoken to a few people with depression recently and routine/exercise seem to be a really important factor in keeping it at bay.
Skandhaless
Striker
Two of the first things to change right there mate. Do less of them and you will not feel as bad for sure . Now ask yourself , two things that make me feel a little better ?
music, excercise , comedy dvd, reading , posting On here , talking on the phone ? I dunno but there will be something . Do more of them
You can't wait until you feel better to behave different , behaviour leads mood change
smoker
Striker
I was prescribed tricyclic antidepressants for chronic pain. Even in those smaller doses they turned me into a zombie. They don't work for everyone unfortunately.
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barbieshellsaysFTM
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On a bit of a downer myself, had depression for I'd say around 30 years since childhood, have had antidepressants and therapy over the years and it comes and goes. I tend to turn into a hermit, overeat, choose not to be around people as to not impose myself on them or bring them down - but it gets very lonely. I have a young son, so I need to be level headed and upbeat for him, but it's hard - so I'm thinking about visiting the docs and asking for antidepressants again
life is hard, I'm hoping things start to look up again as I'm tired of being sick and tired
life is hard, I'm hoping things start to look up again as I'm tired of being sick and tired
Peterlee James
Winger
Aye, I was exactly the same mate.
when I was at work (really boring job) My mind literally went into overdrive, Its all I could think about.. It was f***ing horrible.
I almost walked out of work about five times because I couldn't take it anymore, I know that's never a great attitude but I felt like I honestly couldn't do it.
Even when I finally got over her.. after say two month or so, I still didn't feel great I still felt really down. (It was strange It was almost Like I was still down but for no reason now) I hit a point where I thought I will always feel this down and wont go back to normal. But if theres anything you can take away from what Ive said is.. that things do get better mate, and I'm sure they will for you too.
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Sorry to hear more of our wonderful brotherhood/ sisterhood are suffering from this horrible disease . Just remember you are not alone, a lot if us have gone through it, it's a right bugger when it happens but it CAN be treated.
. Just remember you are not alone, a lot if us have gone through it, it's a right bugger when it happens but it CAN be treated.
Batdad
Striker
Tricyclics are rarely used as first line in depression these days (due to side effects I believe.) SSRIs are the go-to drug now and they're supposed to be pretty good actually, although they take a little while to reach a therapeutic dose.
smoker
Striker
without being funny, I think some of you need to switch off your phones & computers, disconnect the broadband for a while and go out and just enjoy living life away from the internet.
It is a self-fulfilling prophecy and quite addictive in it's own right.
there's a world to be explored and a life to be lived away from the web.
I know this will probably be shot down in flames, but it's just my twopenneth worth
It is a self-fulfilling prophecy and quite addictive in it's own right.
there's a world to be explored and a life to be lived away from the web.
I know this will probably be shot down in flames, but it's just my twopenneth worth
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