Thought, thinking and self awareness


GalacticZorro

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What is the norm? Is there a norm? Is more or less better?

I'm, to me, old now. I'm 40. I always remember thought. I recall at school thinking my way through everyday situations whilst others seemed to float above them. They seemed much happier.

I was happy. I am happy, don't get me wrong. Whilst I do think there is a distinction between over-thought and depression I do wonder about it.

I've heard terms such as overly-self-aware. Which is one I would classify myself. I sometimes think those little moments when Richardson smashes the net, or my chikd makes me laugh are the only times I'm not actually thinking about everything. So, I then analyse why I wasn't thinking about it and should I have been or should I not have been.

I recall a chemistry class, I think it was, and a friend making jokes and the class laughing, I recall so vividly being overwhelming envious of him, as I knew, he wasn't even thinking about it, no analysis, no what if research. He was just being. Existing in the moment.

I can't do that. I have 7 minute internal dialogues over a 10 second event. I view all angles. I explore all reason. I deduce. And it irks me. I've always done it. However, as I get older I find I bore myself with it. And then argue with myself about the boredom. I'm even arguing with myself as I type this.

I don't know the point of this thread. I'm just generally wondering. What's the longest you've never thought? Is this normal? If so, why aren't many more people throwing bread around ASDA hysterically? Do they not know they are buying bread in a brick building on an island in the sea in a spinning rock in a vast expanse of nothing ? Why don't they realise? Yes, yes, I know, kids make life good, you just out a face on and pay taxes and don't become the tattooed leopard man.

How much thought is too much? How do you stop it? Do you want to stop it? Are you jealous of others whom seem not to or feel sorry for them? What's the point? Do you need a point?

Personally, I would have a labotomy type operation to remove 70% of thought, I feel a dumbed down me would be much happier.

What do you reckon daft folk of the SMB?
 
What is the norm? Is there a norm? Is more or less better?

I'm, to me, old now. I'm 40. I always remember thought. I recall at school thinking my way through everyday situations whilst others seemed to float above them. They seemed much happier.

I was happy. I am happy, don't get me wrong. Whilst I do think there is a distinction between over-thought and depression I do wonder about it.

I've heard terms such as overly-self-aware. Which is one I would classify myself. I sometimes think those little moments when Richardson smashes the net, or my chikd makes me laugh are the only times I'm not actually thinking about everything. So, I then analyse why I wasn't thinking about it and should I have been or should I not have been.

I recall a chemistry class, I think it was, and a friend making jokes and the class laughing, I recall so vividly being overwhelming envious of him, as I knew, he wasn't even thinking about it, no analysis, no what if research. He was just being. Existing in the moment.

I can't do that. I have 7 minute internal dialogues over a 10 second event. I view all angles. I explore all reason. I deduce. And it irks me. I've always done it. However, as I get older I find I bore myself with it. And then argue with myself about the boredom. I'm even arguing with myself as I type this.

I don't know the point of this thread. I'm just generally wondering. What's the longest you've never thought? Is this normal? If so, why aren't many more people throwing bread around ASDA hysterically? Do they not know they are buying bread in a brick building on an island in the sea in a spinning rock in a vast expanse of nothing ? Why don't they realise? Yes, yes, I know, kids make life good, you just out a face on and pay taxes and don't become the tattooed leopard man.

How much thought is too much? How do you stop it? Do you want to stop it? Are you jealous of others whom seem not to or feel sorry for them? What's the point? Do you need a point?

Personally, I would have a labotomy type operation to remove 70% of thought, I feel a dumbed down me would be much happier.

What do you reckon daft folk of the SMB?


Are you successful in your career?
 
Are you successful in your career?

I am.

It, like everything else, is a target which once achieved is a let down and deemed as pointless. Obviously all the trappings and niceties are good, but my mind just moved on to the next thing I haven't got. Which, in all honesty, gets to the point of even if I was a billionaire I'm still just on this rock. I need to know more than this planet can offer. I'm aware that sounds absolutely ridiculous but I also don't really care.
 
Me dad used to say "you know what thought did son. He thought he had but he hadn't, and he thought he did be he didn't."

Stop thinking and just do what you can while you can.

And 40 is young BTW. You'll appreciate that when you hit 60.
 
Brains are wired differently. You have to recognise what you have and adjust accordingly.

A fast brain is as much a curse as a slow one, but at least at the fast end you can exercise some control over it with a bit practice.

I have much practice. I've even found myself in yoga positions. Then found myself laughing at the inherent madness of sitting in my living room in that position.

I have done, in no particular order;

Education
University
Emigration
Partying
Slag
Happily married
Fatherhood( continuous obviously)
Singledom
Dating
Gym body
Fat body
Skinny body
Reading
Audio books
No job
Class job
No travel
World travel
Drinking
Not drinking
Loads of drugs
No drugs
Smoking
Not smoking
SAFC fanatical
Not arsed SAFC
No money
Loads of money
No sex
Lots of sex
Love
No love
Meditation
Religion
Spirituality
Lone
Social

All rendered the same. As the same brain is doing each.

I'm aware I'm going to get, and am already getting pelters for this. It's irrelevant. I'm after enlightenment. And yes, I've tried buddism.
 
I am.

It, like everything else, is a target which once achieved is a let down and deemed as pointless. Obviously all the trappings and niceties are good, but my mind just moved on to the next thing I haven't got. Which, in all honesty, gets to the point of even if I was a billionaire I'm still just on this rock. I need to know more than this planet can offer. I'm aware that sounds absolutely ridiculous but I also don't really care.

I've worked with people who portray the ability to make a decision on the spot every single time, but I've also seen the same people fail in that decision making process as they've not fully considered all potential outcomes. It pains me sometimes that I can pour over and over a certain thing, but I'm always certain, at the end, the choice is the very best I could have made and it's never yet backfired.

Do you have anything else in life which gives some escapism?
 

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