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That's kinda been my thoughts when planning for next year even before this happened that for me think smaller non city type events are better, with my thoughts to moving to ultras in 2016 which again will be smaller as well. Crowds don't usually trigger anything for me quite happily goto the match or gigs and festivals its more a feeling of not being able to get out and haven't had anything like that for years as generally mitigate my triggers for example sitting in aisle seats at the cinema etc. I'm a pretty cold logical person and no-one around me could believe I was someone that it suddenly hit and yeah looked at cbt etc when it first happened to me. I'm still not really sure if it was the cramps that triggered the nerves or vice versa as that was never a symptom in the past.
Sounds awful mate. Very easy for me to say but do the marathon (assuming you are physically fit for it) and that will help erase memories of yesterday. As you well know, its a lot of mind over matter with that sort of thing. Much harder to do in practice of course...