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Keep going Rhubarb your needed here more than you will ever know and same to you ANYTHING you need you just message ANYTIME x

Cheers mate. Means a lot. Just opened up to one of me good mates about it all.

I’m having more good days than bad now so that’s great.

Hope your well marra.
Who the hell you been kissing in the shed mate ? Haha


Hahahaha not the wife. That’s for certain.
 
Cheers mate. Means a lot. Just opened up to one of me good mates about it all.

I’m having more good days than bad now so that’s great.

Hope your well marra.



Hahahaha not the wife. That’s for certain.
Yeah mate am OK thanks for asking and well done opening up to one of ya mates 👍
 
I saw the NHS Specialist a couple of days ago.

High Functioning Asperger's is the official outcome. He was old school so prefers the pre-2012 definitions rather than lumping everyone under the Autism Spectrum Disorder banner. That is helpful, as the words actually describe me. So I'm the same as Chris Packham. 🙂 I feel relief.

So now back to Occupational Health for reasonable adjustments, which I'll need, old or new job.

I've had to query the report the NHS sent me. As I need to share the information with work, there's a statement in there that could land me in a bit of trouble.

Beyond that, what he's said about my relationship with my late mum is inaccurate.

I'll see what happens now.
 
I've had to query the report the NHS sent me. As I need to share the information with work, there's a statement in there that could land me in a bit of trouble.

Beyond that, what he's said about my relationship with my late mum is inaccurate.

I'll see what happens now.
I would query that mate because the whole point is to be open and honest but then if that comes back to bite you in the arse ...... surely that can't be allowed.
 
I would query that mate because the whole point is to be open and honest but then if that comes back to bite you in the arse ...... surely that can't be allowed.

I have queried the bits of report i mentioned. I have to.

The specialist has clearly typed it up in a hurry (High work load?). I get that as waiting lists are horrendous. But mistakes hurt people and in my case unravel alot of the progress that's been made.
 
I have queried the bits of report i mentioned. I have to.

The specialist has clearly typed it up in a hurry (High work load?). I get that as waiting lists are horrendous. But mistakes hurt people and in my case unravel alot of the progress that's been made.
Exactly mate and couldn't have put it better.
 
Had a week off work whilst the mrs was in Poland, so I’ve been looking after the bairn. I’ve been doing a lot better these last few weeks and thought I’d started to crack it to be honest. Then I woke up Friday morning and had a horrible thought that made me panic and I feel like utter shit again. How can a single thought do this man? I can’t stop ruminating about it.

Currently lay on the sofa with the bairn whilst she’s watching the tele bless her. I’m just watching the rain pouring outside.

When I look at her little face it makes me want to cry. She’s so sweet and innocent. She deserves a dad who can enjoy her.
 
Had a week off work whilst the mrs was in Poland, so I’ve been looking after the bairn. I’ve been doing a lot better these last few weeks and thought I’d started to crack it to be honest. Then I woke up Friday morning and had a horrible thought that made me panic and I feel like utter shit again. How can a single thought do this man? I can’t stop ruminating about it.

Currently lay on the sofa with the bairn whilst she’s watching the tele bless her. I’m just watching the rain pouring outside.

When I look at her little face it makes me want to cry. She’s so sweet and innocent. She deserves a dad who can enjoy her.
She's got a dad that she loves and needs in her life.
 
Had a week off work whilst the mrs was in Poland, so I’ve been looking after the bairn. I’ve been doing a lot better these last few weeks and thought I’d started to crack it to be honest. Then I woke up Friday morning and had a horrible thought that made me panic and I feel like utter shit again. How can a single thought do this man? I can’t stop ruminating about it.

Currently lay on the sofa with the bairn whilst she’s watching the tele bless her. I’m just watching the rain pouring outside.

When I look at her little face it makes me want to cry. She’s so sweet and innocent. She deserves a dad who can enjoy her.
Shes got you mate and im sure she enjoys you and loves you and needs you more than anything
 
I saw the NHS Specialist a couple of days ago.

High Functioning Asperger's is the official outcome. He was old school so prefers the pre-2012 definitions rather than lumping everyone under the Autism Spectrum Disorder banner. That is helpful, as the words actually describe me. So I'm the same as Chris Packham. 🙂 I feel relief.

Congrats on learning more about yourself! I was diagnosed in 2016 and there are others on this site too with a diagnosis who are happy to support and share their experience.

The biggest positive for me is that it's helped me be easier on myself. I have always given myself a hard time over my failings and it has really got me down at times, now I accept it all much easier as I know its just who I am.

Hope the diagnosis and any considerations your work can make give you an easier time
 
Hi all. Update on me fat basket ball heed.

Feeling ok as such but I’ve struggling with these bastard tablets again.

Sertraline 100mg. I’ve had this before but this time it’s worse. Waking up clenching my teeth and hands. Mouth bleeding and sore as fuck.

Tiredness. I fall asleep and I’m covered in cold sweat and I mean soaking. This is why I came off them years ago.

It’s that bad I’m ringing doctors the morra cos I feel worse with the fuckers.

Hope everyone is keeping on. Love Rhubarb. Xx
 
Hi all. Update on me fat basket ball heed.

Feeling ok as such but I’ve struggling with these bastard tablets again.

Sertraline 100mg. I’ve had this before but this time it’s worse. Waking up clenching my teeth and hands. Mouth bleeding and sore as fuck.

Tiredness. I fall asleep and I’m covered in cold sweat and I mean soaking. This is why I came off them years ago.

It’s that bad I’m ringing doctors the morra cos I feel worse with the fuckers.

Hope everyone is keeping on. Love Rhubarb. Xx
Aaah mate you hang in there and I came off them as was making me feel worse , it was the Mrs who said she could see a massive difference she said I was like a zombie when I was on them. If there's anything I can do message anytime.
 
Went to see a Talking Therapies Counselor, who was the Lee Johnson of therapists.

Firstly, there was lovely paved parking for all the employees, but the patients have to park on the street and pay a meter.

Then the receptionist with a face like a smacked arse was more interested in getting you to use hand santizer. "Gosh, is this door a time portal, is it 2020 again?!"

The 'therapist' did nowt more than ask a few questions of how often I felt certain things and shuffled me out of the door as quick as she could. Then she used the Bank Hols as an excuse to say it wasn't worth doing the last session.

She assured me that I looked much happier than my first session; even though five minutes before I'd literally said I'd been having regular thoughts of being better off dead. :rolleyes:

Would've been better off saving the parking meter money and buying a book off Amazon. World of f***ing frauds and chancers.
 
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Went to see a Talking Therapies Counselor, who was the Lee Johnson of therapists.

Firstly, there was lovely paved parking for all the employees, but the patients have to park on the street and pay a meter.

Then the receptionist with a face like a smacked arse was more interested in getting you to use hand santizer. "Gosh, is this door a time portal, is it 2020 again?!"

The 'therapist' did nowt more than ask a few questions of how often I felt certain things and shuffled me out of the door as quick as she could. Then she used the Bank Hols as an excuse to say it wasn't worth doing the last session.

She assured me that I looked much happier than my first session; even though five minutes before I'd literally said I'd been having regular thoughts of being better off dead. :rolleyes:

Would've been better off saving the parking meter money and buying a book off Amazon. World of f***ing frauds and chancers.

Sorry to hear that.

I have been on the waiting list for 13 months for my next blast at Talking Therapies ( 18 more weeks at least to wait I have been told ) and I have had an up down experience with them too.

First time around, a long wait again, followed by a lady who didn't seem to get where I was at, after 6 sessions she decided she needed to transfer me to a different person who was more qualified, great I thought, but meant another 9 months wait.

He was much better, but was trained in complex ptsd where the Lady wasn't, so I think he got my issues better than she did, I dont blame her mind.

16 sessions and he wanted to extend my treatment but wasn't allowed, so I had to go back on the waiting list again and I am here still waiting.

The biggest problem for me is I was making some slow progress but its been that long I do feel I am back to square one.

Dont give up on it, give them a ring and get back on the list, ask to speak to someone different, explain the issues, that you dont feel it worked and that you still need help, maybe a different person helping will make all the difference?
 
Absolute disgrace what you 2 have been through. Don't ever give up and feel free to message anytime.
Thank you for well wishes and offer to listen, means a lot.

I dont blame the service to be honest, so many people need help and just not enough people who can, so ends up with long waits, just one of those things.

In my case I was pleased the Lass worked out quite quickly that what she could offer wasn't really what I needed, She did a lot of work with CBT stuff, where as I need more complex PTSD therapy.

I found talking on here has helped loads, Becs was a god send when things got really dark for me a couple of years ago, I had some fantastic offers of help from quite a few posters, just goes to show how class this place is.

Sometimes a good rant or just writing something out on here can be a big help too mind.
 
Thank you for well wishes and offer to listen, means a lot.

I dont blame the service to be honest, so many people need help and just not enough people who can, so ends up with long waits, just one of those things.

In my case I was pleased the Lass worked out quite quickly that what she could offer wasn't really what I needed, She did a lot of work with CBT stuff, where as I need more complex PTSD therapy.

I found talking on here has helped loads, Becs was a god send when things got really dark for me a couple of years ago, I had some fantastic offers of help from quite a few posters, just goes to show how class this place is.

Sometimes a good rant or just writing something out on here can be a big help too mind.
I totally agree some people on here are so kind when they have nothing to gain from it , that to me proves what good people they are.
 
In a perfect world everybody aged 60 would have a colonoscopy and a repeat every 3-5 years after that ..sadly the economic price of this is to much for the NHS......the nhs does have a sigmoidoscopy screening service in some areas but this only looks at one side of the colon and whilst the poo samples are better than nothing the growths only bleed when they are established.....
 
In a perfect world everybody aged 60 would have a colonoscopy and a repeat every 3-5 years after that ..sadly the economic price of this is to much for the NHS......the nhs does have a sigmoidoscopy screening service in some areas but this only looks at one side of the colon and whilst the poo samples are better than nothing the growths only bleed when they are established.....
Is everything OK mate.
 
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