Depression

Thanks mate, appreciate it. This place is a bit of a release for me, only really on here do I open up about my feelings a bit. I just want today over and to sleep and feel better tomorrow.

I'm exactly the same mate, think a few others are too. As you just get through today, stay off the drink, will be better for it.
 


I'm exactly the same mate, think a few others are too. As you just get through today, stay off the drink, will be better for it.

The drink definitely does harm me like, I'm a very social person and I love a few pints on a weekend, seeing familiar faces etc, but a prolonged period leaves me in a bad way mentally and physically, add that to general feelings of loneliness, discontent and low self esteem and its a terrible mix. I never used to suffer this bad but something changed in me about 3 years ago and the smallest thing can set me off now into a dark place.
 
The drink definitely does harm me like, I'm a very social person and I love a few pints on a weekend, seeing familiar faces etc, but a prolonged period leaves me in a bad way mentally and physically, add that to general feelings of loneliness, discontent and low self esteem and its a terrible mix. I never used to suffer this bad but something changed in me about 3 years ago and the smallest thing can set me off now into a dark place.

Are we the same person? Like reading by own biography there like!

I lost the plot as well this Christmas with the drunk, not going to drink until the Stoke game, life isn't as fun or social, but it keeps me a bit more even. Just find something else to keep your mind occupied. Plenty of lasses out there mate, will get there.
 
Didn't go into work today. couldn't hack it. haven't even rang them up to explain yet. Just came off the sick for depression but this weekend has been grim. My lass was saying how much of a mistake it's been moving back in with me. she's going forward with her life. I'm just a miserable bastard. she and my daughter deserve better. I'm sick of letting myself, my lass and my bairn down. I want to run away but them 2 are my life. I need them but I'm dragging them down.
 
Are we the same person? Like reading by own biography there like!

I lost the plot as well this Christmas with the drunk, not going to drink until the Stoke game, life isn't as fun or social, but it keeps me a bit more even. Just find something else to keep your mind occupied. Plenty of lasses out there mate, will get there.

If we are then you must be one handsome bastard!

I need a prolonged period off the drink like, my willpower is very low with this sort of thing but I just need to really do it this time and get my head straight. It does occasionally feel like a vicious circle as if I don't go out on a weekend I'm just stuck in my bedroom but I can't do feeling like this every week.

Didn't go into work today. couldn't hack it. haven't even rang them up to explain yet. Just came off the sick for depression but this weekend has been grim. My lass was saying how much of a mistake it's been moving back in with me. she's going forward with her life. I'm just a miserable bastard. she and my daughter deserve better. I'm sick of letting myself, my lass and my bairn down. I want to run away but them 2 are my life. I need them but I'm dragging them down.

Hope you get sorted mate. I was in a similar position a few years ago and I let it cost me what I had, it's difficult to drag yourself out of such a rut but please don't let yourself end up regretting it like I did.
 
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I was prescribed with Sertraline two weeks ago, not a drink over Christmas. My sleep is disrupted and I'm constantly knackered... I don't know if they have worked or whether I just can't be bothered to feel bad anymore, a strange feeling.

That's what my friend was put on. He's been on it six weeks now and he just feels like numb. He's not as down as he was, but he's not really feeling anything. He said he just kind of exists. His sleep is disrupted which doesn't help. The sickness did pass after a few weeks and he tried a small amount of drink on New Years Eve and he was ok. He's going back for a review in a couple of weeks.

I never used to suffer this bad but something changed in me about 3 years ago and the smallest thing can set me off now into a dark place.

That's the weirdest part of this illness. You can be plodding along just fine, then it just takes one thing that is probably something quite trivial and it sends you off into a spiral.

Bit of a shitty Christmas here. After looking forward to two weeks off with the bairns, I came down with a nasty viral chest infection and spent most of the week before Christmas laying on the sofa and all our plans went out the window.

Back to work this morning and I've still got a cough, catarrh and sore throat lingering on.

Next years Christmas holidays are weird. The bairns break up on the 22nd Dec but don't go back until the 10th Jan. I was playing around and found some stupidly cheap flights to Lanzarote on New Years Day 2018. So I don't care what happens in the run up to Christmas or how shitty it is, as once it's out of the way, I'm sodding off to lay in the sunshine :D
 
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Yep, definitely a shitty day....
Got a message at 0520 that my best mate's mum had died... Lung cancer...
Just feel spacey and numb with a headache.
Got a Dr appointment to review my antidepressants which I don't feel are helping... I just feel knackered and detached a lot of the time, AND my blood pressure hasn't come down which was the point of the tablets.
I've halved the dose today to see if that helps at all.

Haven't socialised at all over Christmas, work provided me with an excuse to avoid the pub, and on NYE I stayed in with the dog, cat, glass of wine and the TV.

Sounds like we all need a good dose of "Being kind to ourselves" on here for a few days.
 
Just chill out now and tomorrow is a new day xx

PS hope your boobs don't hurt as well mind :lol:

They do seem to have grown over the Xmas period but that could be the 3 parmos

Don`t matter your through it thats the main thing, a nice coffee (or tea if your one of these strange folks) and relax, leave the beer alone though

I couldn't face alcohol again in a hurry, luckily I am one of these who don't drink during the week, unfortunately though I then tend to go mad on a weekend.

In bed for 9 last night hoping for a good nights sleep, got the usual 3 hours max, absolutely done in again today, just laid up all night thinking and feeling like shit. Any good suggestions for sleeping remedies?
 
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I'm having a bad time this morning. I don't know what it is but I want to go to work but I can't bring myself to go. I'm sitting at home but I don't want to be here! I had a breakdown a month ago. I went drinking came home and took some pills. It just got to a stage where I just wanted to disappear. I still feel the same but I need to get back to normal. I just hate myself.
 
I'm having a bad time this morning. I don't know what it is but I want to go to work but I can't bring myself to go. I'm sitting at home but I don't want to be here! I had a breakdown a month ago. I went drinking came home and took some pills. It just got to a stage where I just wanted to disappear. I still feel the same but I need to get back to normal. I just hate myself.

Have you spoken to a Doctor mate?
 

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