I`ve been loitering here taking an interest in people`s plans and circumstances as I am considering retirement soon/very soon.
I lost my wife to cancer a year and a half ago. She retired early on medical grounds but never really had the chance to enjoy her retirement.
I bitterly regret not retiring at the same time but back then when we first discussed it, I`d have taken a big hit on my annual pension and lump sum. She was worried for me how I`d cope financially if I retired then so I kept working. At least I was able to work from home so was on hand whenever she need anything.
I decided after I lost her that I`d work until I was 60 then I`d have a decent pension and lump sum to last me to 67 and that`s been my plan ever since.
BUT
After being content to be alone for the rest of my life, I`ve met someone. It`s a nice story but there is a sting. I first met her on her 18th birthday in 1985 and we wrote to each other as friends for a few years while we were both a uni. In 1990 we got together for a while but she`d moved down south so it fizzled out. She did absolutely nothing wrong and think that the distance and our young age is the reason it ended. Fast forward to this summer. She had moved back up here to look after her Dad and I randomly got in contact to see how she was and soon after we met up for the first time in 35 years and hit it off straight away and we basically picked up where we left off. It feel like fate intervened while I was at my lowest to pull me round. I never expected that to happen and all I`d hoped for when I contacted her was an occasional message at Christmas/birthdays etc but you get hit when least expecting it.
BUT
She has stage 4 cancer and is on her last line of treatment which so far is working. My mortgage is paid off in June and now I am having a big rethink of my plans. I don`t know how long we`ve got and don`t want to waste the upcoming summer being stuck in the office. I want to make every day count with her.
I`m going to check my pension calculator today but I assume going at 59 and a half instead of 60 won`t make a significant difference to my pension.
I`m quite risk averse so I suppose I`m just trying to get some reassurance for a decision I think I've already made.