Depression

Woke up very early this morning to accept a promised work project, only for an email to arrive cancelling the whole bloody thing. Went back to bed in frustration and now I've finally got out of bed at 11.30am. Furious with myself for wasting the morning feeling sorry for myself and oversleeping instead of getting up and just doing something. Argh.
 


f***ing amazing how a big session can screw with your mood for a few days. Feel all over the shop today, mind darting about from senseless anxiety to senseless anxiety.

Seriously considering a period off the drink as the downs are starting to outweigh the ups.
I'm with you on this. The anxiety and paranoia I suffer now after drinking is horrendous. People at work can usually guess by my mood on a Monday morning whether I have been out over the weekend.
 
Woke up very early this morning to accept a promised work project, only for an email to arrive cancelling the whole bloody thing. Went back to bed in frustration and now I've finally got out of bed at 11.30am. Furious with myself for wasting the morning feeling sorry for myself and oversleeping instead of getting up and just doing something. Argh.

Ah you've still got the rest of the day to do something! It's late here now so feel virtuous for doing something constructive while we're all snoring in our pits :D

Finally after badgering dad to go to away games my luck is in his mate rang and asked if we fancied barnsley game something to look forward to @Ginger John

Brilliant news. Hope you enjoy it mate :cool:
 
f***ing amazing how a big session can screw with your mood for a few days. Feel all over the shop today, mind darting about from senseless anxiety to senseless anxiety.

Seriously considering a period off the drink as the downs are starting to outweigh the ups.
I can’t drink to excess anymore because of this. Can last a week or 2 as well.

Hard to pack in drink when it can provide temporary relief from anxiety but really you are just making it worse long term.
 
That lusting will help fella.


I wish........just a list :eek::lol:

f***ing amazing how a big session can screw with your mood for a few days. Feel all over the shop today, mind darting about from senseless anxiety to senseless anxiety.

Seriously considering a period off the drink as the downs are starting to outweigh the ups.

Most acahols don't help, well never did for me, would imagine if not tee total, would be in much worse place at the minute.

If you gave realised the issue then try it fella, nothing to lose and all to gain
 
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Been down a bit recently but better now. Finally got to speak to a bereavement councillor and it has helped massively. Getting to keep myself occupied is good.


Well done fella, getting the help is key, just a pity it takes so long, to be seen. But make the most, helps deal with the loss and pain you are dealing with.
 
I'm with you on this. The anxiety and paranoia I suffer now after drinking is horrendous. People at work can usually guess by my mood on a Monday morning whether I have been out over the weekend.

I used to think it was all caused by drink till i quit booze and still happened- you fix the drinker then you can drink- citalopram generates anxiety on alcohol btw
 
I used to think it was all caused by drink till i quit booze and still happened- you fix the drinker then you can drink- citalopram generates anxiety on alcohol btw

That's what I am now on seems to be working not like the other stuff they gave me, one made me like a zombie, the other made me more anxious and panicky, did the wrong thing mind.

Self medicated as we do and just stopped them dead, had a ten days of real shit, did not realise, that you get withdrawal issues by going cold turkey. Will never make that mistake again, all self inflicted mind, was a dick to myself.
 
For about 2 years now I’ve been feeling pretty low, tired to the point I get up on a morning and go back to bed, and sack work off, I even get agitated over the slightest little thing, That’s without even mentioning my anxiety level.

Last few months I’ve had thoughts of suicide while I’ve sat at my desk, and I’ve managed to get a doctors appointment in the morning.

I guess what I’m asking is, what’s the best way to outright say that i’ve had enough?
 
For about 2 years now I’ve been feeling pretty low, tired to the point I get up on a morning and go back to bed, and sack work off, I even get agitated over the slightest little thing, That’s without even mentioning my anxiety level.

Last few months I’ve had thoughts of suicide while I’ve sat at my desk, and I’ve managed to get a doctors appointment in the morning.

I guess what I’m asking is, what’s the best way to outright say that i’ve had enough?
Just say exactly what you have typed there. Best way forward can be brutal honesty both with yourself and any helping organisations.
 
Woke up this morning to a phone call to tell me another soldier who I served with has took his own life.

First met him in 1989 and hit it off with him straight away, fuckin gutted.
 
For about 2 years now I’ve been feeling pretty low, tired to the point I get up on a morning and go back to bed, and sack work off, I even get agitated over the slightest little thing, That’s without even mentioning my anxiety level.

Last few months I’ve had thoughts of suicide while I’ve sat at my desk, and I’ve managed to get a doctors appointment in the morning.

I guess what I’m asking is, what’s the best way to outright say that i’ve had enough?

Well done for coming out with it and being honest

Woke up this morning to a phone call to tell me another soldier who I served with has took his own life.

First met him in 1989 and hit it off with him straight away, fuckin gutted.

Awful. Feel for you.
 
For about 2 years now I’ve been feeling pretty low, tired to the point I get up on a morning and go back to bed, and sack work off, I even get agitated over the slightest little thing, That’s without even mentioning my anxiety level.

Last few months I’ve had thoughts of suicide while I’ve sat at my desk, and I’ve managed to get a doctors appointment in the morning.

I guess what I’m asking is, what’s the best way to outright say that i’ve had enough?

Just say this. If you don't feel up to that, then print this post off or write it down and hand the piece of paper to the doctor. Hope it goes ok tomorrow xx

Woke up this morning to a phone call to tell me another soldier who I served with has took his own life.

First met him in 1989 and hit it off with him straight away, fuckin gutted.

Sorry to hear that :( xx
 
That's what I am now on seems to be working not like the other stuff they gave me, one made me like a zombie, the other made me more anxious and panicky, did the wrong thing mind.

Self medicated as we do and just stopped them dead, had a ten days of real shit, did not realise, that you get withdrawal issues by going cold turkey. Will never make that mistake again, all self inflicted mind, was a dick to myself.

I took them years, takes 9 months to get used to life off them - they do give you anxiety, make you talk too much, piss too much, bad dreams, twitches.....but they do give you a thicker skin when you need it. However cognitive therapy can fix your self problems just the same......SSRI does not heal the wound, in fact it makes t grow - it does stop the pain tho.
 

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