God bless petal, so sorry about your nana. Try not worry about what it might feel like when you come home, you've had a bad blow and it's natural to feel very sad about it. If you do get down about it, you'll rise again just as you've done before. I bet you can look at times in your nana's life when she took some knocks, but in time came back again. Glad you're talking to your wife about what's going on.
Recently?
Yeah like now, I've managed to do stuff today n that.
First weeks were class, then bam out of nowhere.
I'm still abroad
Nearly came home, but gonna try fight it and still have time off so going to give somewhere else ago