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| I suppose I should manage a 2008 blog. Things have got a fair bit worse unfortunately, it really is a desperate struggle now, you think you could fight this, I'd like you to try as unless you are going through this you can't understand. I used to be naive enough to to think 'well surely you could just push yourself out, kick yourself up the backside and just 'keep going'. Im at the point where it's only the love for others that makes me hope I wake of a morning, if I didn't have that I'd be content to drift away to whatever place I'm destined to go to. I get so fucking weak (it really is unpleasant when sitting upright is a real chore), appetite comes and goes, i vomit regularly with little warning, my guts are horrifically painful and I have the shits something chronic after being forced in to taking a laxative as I was constipated (best of both worlds!) Many nights lacking in sleep, I can't use my beautiful king size bed as no matter what I do with the pillows I get acid reflux from it so it's the settee every night. och, I dunno, liz has been INCREDIBLE and I have mam and dad rushing down today to look after e which will be heaven. me good old ma, me being her sick little boy again. that's me shattered. | ||
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| Hi Hazey,
I’ll start with a confession. I’m a Newcastle fan. I began reading your blogs when I was on the SMB stalking looking for news about home (I live in Canada and am originally from Washington). To be honest it took me a long time before I plucked up the courage to write this short message. For a start I really didn’t want to stick my oar in to a website that is for the benefit of Sunderland supporters and for another I didn’t want to repeat what others have expressed far more eloquently than me. So that said, let me by the umpteenth person to tell you that your are an inspiration. Your words fill me with hope. You see beyond the immediate frustration of life and light the way to a happier brighter reality. Your words express the true meaning of love. It so easy to understand love as you express it. Because of you I think more about my loved ones. I think more deeply about my loved ones. Because of you I get up off my arse and walk in the local park. I notice nature at work even in the dead of winter. I now know that nature isn’t really dead in winter. The snow isn’t killing it is revitalising. I don’t wish my life away waiting for spring. As you have pointed out life is far too precious and fragile for that. Through your illness your mind has remained as sharp as a tack. Your insight has helped me see the connections between nature, friends, family, spirituality, and life itself. Your impact will remain. Thank you. Colin | |||
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| ... really have done so much, an awful lot. I think you have probably changed the lives of a lot of people who read your blog for the better, I know that's true in my case. I'm so sorry it's ghastly at the minute, all thoughts are with you xxx | |||
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| that i shall treasure, i still recalll our phone chats from kings hospital, lovely of you , as usual
Graeme | |||
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| what janie has said mate - as you know. You've changed so many of us. You and Liz are in my thoughts. Peter. | |||
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| whether to post this on the blog or not, but here goes.
Last night I lay in bed and looked up at the stars (go Velux windows) and one particularly bright one caught my eye and made me think of you. I know that words can't give you what you need right now, but I wish you peace Hazey, and freedom from pain. You have changed people's lives - look at some of the comments on here about how people are seeing the world differently thanks to you mister ! Lots of love Hazel x Edited by BadMother on Thursday, January 3, 2008 at 12:39 AM | |||
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| Those hands that you have had moved me to tears, honey. Your blog inpsires me time and time again, and you make me feel like I have opportunities that I had forgotten about. Graeme honey, if I could take some of this pain and suffering from you, even just for 5 minutes, I would. Just take things hour to hour, minute to minute, and remember that you have people who love you. | |||
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