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| Hello. I'm absolutely horrid today. A massive fungal mouth infection has hit and it has struck me right down. I have horrid sores all over my mouth and lips. My tongue is coated in this harsh grim shit and I will have a fingal mass nestling in my throat. Lovely. At the shops today I was so awfu. about 500 yards to the shops and it was a real effort. Staying upright was hard enough. I kept having to spit out gak in the gutter from my mouth and pukes were close. I can't sleep at night, horrendous acid reflux, puking and having to try and sleep sitting up, which is totally unnatural. So I will be spending nights on the settee passing the time best I can until dawn comes again. I'm told the mega anti-fungal will knock it on the head in no time. It is seriously unpleasant in the meantime though. fun times. So forgive my lack of blogs for the next day or two. I have tonnes of wind at the minute which is exceedingly painful but when it finally emerges it's like giving birth. Relief after so much pain and strife. I can't wait to fart this out, it will be a good 30 seconds worth of sustained fart I reckon. Magic. Please happen soon. I feel so much apart form the world when Im suffering like this, I look normal and am only young but you just want to say to people 'please, I'm really struggling here' when you are delayed in a queue or whatever. Just the other night I did a huge walk and felt great and now I feel like this. Fucking fungal infections, what a cunt (all to do with chemo effects and lowered immune system and stuff, I'm not a manky fella who has smegma/knob cheese or owt. fungal infection always has that 'urgh' factor to it. Anyway, football. Speak soon when Im broght and breezy again. Take care. | ||
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| I know you feel crap at the moment. I'll tell you a story about someone close to me, well you can't get much closer(he was my twin brother). He was diagnosed with cancer earlier this year, just after his lass found out she was pregnant(for the 5th time). He had the chemo, and he said that the mouth ulcers and the pain was the most horrible thing in the world. He was like you, a battler, and posted on a newcastle united board just about every day up until he died in june aged 32. He always had a smile on his face, even on the hard days(and there were many) and he always believed that he would get the most out of life while he could. He would be really proud of you, and would probably tell you not to be too hard on yourself. I know there are times when he felt like asking for help, but he didn't, I assume he felt much the same as you do, that a young lad should be able to cope. But I know he would tell you to be kind to yourself.
You are a brave and courageous man, like Dan was and I know you will battle on. Just thought I would let you know that there are people out there who understand how hard it is for lads like you and Dan,. Take care petal. Diane | |||
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| much for that diane, they really are lovely words abd I take a great dealof comfort from them.
Graeme | |||
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