Hello there,
I've had a reasonable day today. I had a fucking awful night though, I must have farted out about an Albert Hall's worth of arse gas, it was horribly painful and worrying. Combined with plenty of desperate shitting meant not much sleep was had. Found out this medication I'm on for the shits/constipation (it's a long and unpleasant story as to how I can have both. But I can) will make me cack and give me wind for the first few days then should settle me in to a routine. I'm a lot better today (well, still pretty bad but nowhere near as bad as yesterday). Nausea has started in earnest now but the anti sickness tablets are pretty fucking good so it isn't too much of a problem.
I had a wee lie in this morning then headed in to town to go to my healing thing. It was great to see the fella again, we had a good natter and I really, really like him, he's so warm and caring and I love the healing bit, really chills me right fucking out. I wandered through the graveyard of the village church on the way back, the weather was beautiful, that lovely crispness with the bright sun. You don't want to be in the shade too long and when you step in to the sun it feels instantly warming. I rubbed my hands over some of the long time crumbling older gravestones, feeling the rough texture and smoothed edges from hundreds of years of rain. There's loads of trailing ivy all over the ground in the older parts, it looks like a rolling sea with the old tombstones appearing to strain for air as the tops of them poke out. It was terribly calming and serene.
I walked home and the leaves are building up on the paths now so you kick your feet through them. I remembered as a child being outside St. Andrew's church in Roker when all the leaves had fallen off the trees on that road, piling in to them with friends, feeling like you could swim and be swallowed by them when they come so much nearer to your face.
I'll sort of continue this tomorrow, I'm off back to watch the football, it's no bad so far. |
