| Did an email to Germany to say thanks and give them details of where to send the refunded money back to and things and got a very nice reply but she was saying they wished they could have done more for me and how I'm an extremely brave young man. Well missus, I haven't given up hope that I can get through this, even if everyone else has. So long as I have an oncologist who is willing to try anything and my liver doctor who was talking about all sorts of therapies before he left for holidays, then that's all I need. I'm still here, I'm still believing in 'the beautiful light', I still have hope, I still have a power within me wanting to get through this. Each case is individual and cancer is a strange thing, who fucking knows what will happen. So long as there's a chance, even if it is the tiniest of tiny chances, I'll still be there clinging to hope. If you don't have hope you've got nothing. Even if they told me there was nothing they could do any more, I'd still try and still believe, still hope. Right, hospital beckons, I'll probably dictate some blogs to the missus but I hopefully shouldn't be in too long. |
