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| I phoned up my liver doctors receptionist to try and arrange a further appointment with him and she said that he wanted a word with me. I got that 'hot flush' I've talked about before as I was expecting *serious voice* 'I'm sorry top say...'. Turns out they'd looked at the CT scan and it isn't rampant cancer causing further blockages preventing drainage. The stents are working, the liver is draining, there's nothing obstructing it further up the billiary tree so at the minute he's a bit at a loss but it has to be something chemical/existing condition. He was very interested in my sisters itch during pregnancy so he is going to discuss with colleagues about what to do but may just prescribe some medication that will bring it down. But fuck me if that isn't the best news I've had in a long time. I was certain it would be out of control cancer, I'm so fucking relieved it isn't. Trouble is if they get it down enough for chemo to begin that leaves me facing a choice of surgery now with the risks or gambling on chemo shrinking the tumour (which isn't certain by any means) making surgery after a course of chemo safer. And it will only be me able to call that. But I'm just so happy it isn't out of control, this has been my day of days, I'll never forget this day for as long as I live. To get off the phone and just to hug my wife while pissing tears and telling her the news will live with me forever. Now, I'm off for a shit, a bath and then pie mash and beans, I hope you agree that I deserve it. | ||
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| That's brilliant news mate. You must have went through an emotional rollercoaster during that phone call. Keep battling lad, you'll get there.
Have a good shite and piss-up. Don. | |||
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| .. decided that Im getting pissed on your behalf like. Hope you dont mind.
Fee x | |||
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| ...it's a rollercoaster, innit? | |||
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| That's great news, I'm so pleased for you.
Keep on knacking it... | |||
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| Cracking news that like Hazey. I think I'll join ssshpanky in having a few beers on your behalf. | |||
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| although not technically 'good' news it is at least not the horrendous news I was expecting. It sounds silly but I was sat on the tube today thinking a conversation to God and dead relatives and all I could think was 'I'm so sorry, I haven't done anything 'worthy' in my life, I've been such a waste and such a disappointment, I'm just so sorry' and that was all that went through my head. I was just...numb. I still can't believe all of todays events.
And thanks to you all for reading this stuff and leaving your lovely comments, the board and here especially have been a tremendous catharsis for me and the support people leave is deeply touching. I reckon I'll sleep tonight, and hopefully, dream nice dreams. | |||
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| You are certainly worthy, I am inspired reading your blogs. I'd been feeling awful at the prospect of seeing my cpn tomorrow but in comparison to what you're going through... well you can't compare can you?
We're all here, cheering you on marra!! Jo xx | |||
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| get that f*cker windmilled :o) | |||
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| Last three blogs (from the bottom up) in a row !
Lordy, it was emotional for me so can only begin to imagine what it was like for you. Good to see things finally going your way Hazey. You've plenty of twists and turns but you're doing amazingly well and I'm delighted for you. Enjoy you pie & mash. | |||
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| What a day.
You're a fucking inspiration. I think I just got something in my eye. | |||
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| with that comment AB22, really appreciate that. Thanks everyone for all your lovely comments. | |||
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| My girlfriend, Tracey, just came into my office crying.
She'd read your last three blogs. She wants to hug you. | |||
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| fan as might have already been established : ) She can save it for when I'm in america one day.
You can't be making a northern lad cry like this AB22, it's not on :) | |||
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